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My cats tryin to get into her new snacks its not really working but its cute

AJ got a new job, working at a vintage shop in a mall. im working with my parents again, so now i have something to do. But alas im getting the blues, i understand that he cant text me at work, but now her rarely texts during breaks, and i might get a morning love text in the morning, then a im off how are you text then nothing. then im tired night. in other words. he isnt talking to me much at all and i am feeling very lonly. cuz hes either out with his friends, or playing xbox with one of his good friends in texas. but not his lonly girl friend who just wants to know how work went, and what his plans are, and what i did if anything. 

well thats my feelings for now

bye

I havent seen aj in a week, and its nothing new, but the fact that its summer just makes me feel lame. Ive been out of my house once sense last friday and that was with my friend so she could hang out with her friends. And i feel likes its been for ever sense ive seen aj. I think its been worse now because not only do i not see him, but he hasnt been texting me like normal. I understand he's got a job, and i make sure im awake before he leave so i can wish him a good day, and he tells me when he's on his lunch break and off, but then after 5 mins he's out hanging out with his friends, because one of his good friends is in town and he's been at his friends houses ever day after work this week. He hardly talks to me till he gets home at 2. then just goes straight to bed because hes got work in the morning.

i just wish he'd talk to me more. like when we were first seeing eachother, he'd text me every hour, like on the dot, and it made me happy because i knew he was with his friends, and it made me happy that he'd take the time to tell me hi, or later on that he loved me or missed me. but now, im lucky if i get on the entire time he's there from 4-2. 

and i miss talking to him, and i try to talk to him, but it takes a long time to get a response..

in other news i have a shitty 2.8 on my 40week for jr. year

C french A wood C english B Chem B History (B Soc a college class but they dont count it in my grades because they never asked for them)

and i got my SAT test resutls back and i do not know if they are good or bad, but i know with them i can get into CSU. i just need to take an ACT test i dont even know what that is

i was just asking aj about his day. and he mentioned hanging with his friends alot, and how a few of them brought their girfriends with them. and i feel kinda lame cuz he doesnt take me.

i was going to be like so you get to meet every ones gf eh. something like that but i thought id make it seem like i was upset, well i am but not angery, i just dont want him to think im angry. but i do want him to see that i do get a little upset that he doesnt ask me to hang out with him and his friends. if he did, i understand that its guy time you kno? i just think id like the invite and maybe just go once just to see whats so great about it all. but like i just feel kind of left out, i mean his friends are/have brought their gf's to bearfest. and even just a girl theyre wanting to sleep with. but not aj. i love him i just want him to offer me a moment that i could come. and i also wanna kno if when he's hanging with his friend that brough their gf, i wonder if he thinks about me or bringing me for a moment. i think id be happy to know that, maybe satisfied about this whole issue i seem to be having, i just wanna kno if i cross his mind