Getting My Swagger Back .... I was born January 16, 1965. My Parents Alvin and Louise Kendle adopted me about 6 months after I was born. (I think that were it all started) Since I was 6 years old I have battled my weight... I remember my mother bringing me to the doctor to put me on a DIET. Everything had to be boiled, no taste, ECT… That did not work. Do not get me wrong my Parents where WONDERFUL!!! They loved me to death. But the rest of the Family treated me like garbage. They called me Fat all the time... They thought I did not hear them but I did. I never wanted to go places with my cousins because I was fat so I stayed alone most of the time. My Parents did not know all this because I kept this all inside. I felt that they were so nice to adopt me I did not want to rock the boat. (That was Stupid)... But that was how I felt. In my pre-teen years it was horrible. I hated school, was teased everyday and I would go home and eat everything sweet I could find, sit in front of the TV. and cry. No one ever knew how I felt I hid it very well. In High School it even got worst… I had about 5 friends (If you want to call them friends). I never went to any activity in School. Then I found this wonderful program ROP. So all I had to do was go to school for 3 classes and then off to Beauty School. That was so fun I love doing Hair and Make-up. (But I was still FAT). So high school got a little better because I always had the best hairstyles and I was very pretty in the face (like all big girls are. I was told). So that was where the weight problem started... I kept everything inside!!!! And then the Adult hell started…. I met my husband when I was about 17. I thought he was the love of my life. Everything was great, we got Married. I think I was so happy to have a boy like me I fell head over heels in love with him. My mother used to always tell me “He was from the other side of the tracks” I really did not know what that meant until I hit 40. Drugs, Alcohol, Abuse, act… and that was the end of that relationship. From that point I had about 6 other relationships and they all were very abusive. Physical and Emotional. My Self astem was its lowest. I started taking diet pills and I lost about 100 pounds but I still was not happy even after I lost the weight. So I gained that back and more In 1990 my father was diagnosed with Cancer so I took care of him until he passed away in 1991. I moved back home with my mother because she was so lonely but I was still in bad relationships. It was Crazy In about 2000... My mother started having small strokes between 2000 and 2004 she went from being very independent to total care. She passed in 2005. In the same years I met a man that I thought was the love of my life again. Here I go the Cycle continues. He was very nice he did not physically abuse me, but Emotional abuse, I met the King. He cheated, cheated, cheated, and cheated. Oh yea He lied, lied, lied, and lied. Then the most wonderful thing happened I had My Beautiful Baby Girl Imani!!!!! Doctors said I would never have a child because of all the abuse to my body but GOD had a different plan. My daughter was born May 5, 2004 at 7:15pm. She stayed in the hospital for 15 days. She has diagnosed with Down syndrome. But with all a had been through all my life this would be a piece of cake. She had heart surgery a couple years after that and she is doing great. She is 4 going on 40. lol Imani is the best thing that has ever happened to me. And she is the reason that life is worth living. I want to be able to play, run, laugh and enjoy her for the rest of my life. So as of 6.24.2008 my life is taking a different road. And that road is losing weight and meeting new people that can show me the way to health weight loss. So here i am and Here i will be !!!!
Getting My Swagger Back .... I was born January 16, 1965. My Parents Alvin and Louise Kendle adopted me about 6 months after I was born. (I think that were it all started) Since I was 6 years old I have battled my weight... I remember my mother bringing me to the doctor to put me on a DIET. Everything had to be boiled, no taste, ECT… That did not work. Do not get me wrong my Parents where WONDERFUL!!! They loved me to death. But the rest of the Family treated me like garbage. They called me Fat all
If he can't meet you where you are....leave him where he's at!' Words from Pastor Jamal Harrison-Bryant: I often warn women who are contemplating marriage to marry someone who can take care of them. When a woman marries, it ought to be to someone who is capable of taking her to the next level. If she comes from poverty, there is no reason for her to get married and still be impoverished. The role of the man is to take her to another place. When she gets married, she ought to dress better, drive better, live better, and eat better, not constantly be in a struggle over where her next meal is coming from. My grandmother used to say, 'I can do bad all by myself'. For a woman desiring a mate, the objective, of course, would be to find a Christian man, who's settled, has goals, accomplishment s and a job. But a goal-oriented and focused man can't just be approached any kind of way. So the woman who seeks this type of stability must make sure that he stands out above the crowd: 1. Make sure your relationship with the Lord is strong and growing. 2. Make sure that you are presentable. Working from the inside out, your presentation should be representative of both who you are and whom you seek. Appearance is a reflection of how you see yourself. 3. Have the ability to hold an intelligent conversation. 4. And most importantly, allow the Holy Ghost to take control. You don't need to go after him. He's going to come after you, because after he sees and smells you and knows that you're in his presence, he's going to want to know who you are! I know there's somebody reading this who has been chasing after the 'man of your dreams, ' but God says, 'Just sit still and allow patience to have her perfect work through Me. ' However, if he sees that you are dressed with quality, that you smell like you are somebody, that you look like you're doing fine without him, then that will attract the right attention from him. He'll have no choice but to give you his attention. Stop looking so needy, climbing into bed, trying in vain to capture a man's heart. God woke me up in the middle of the night and said, 'The same thing that Naomi told Ruth to do is the same thing that I want them to do for me.' God is so sick of saints coming to Him trying to get a quickie and never romancing Him for Who he is - going to church screaming, shouting and hollering, but hadn't been intimate with God all week long! Stop trying to treat God like a sugar daddy and start romancing Him with worship and praise: 'I'm yours Lord...everything I've got...everything I'm not!' The God we serve, which is the God of love, demands and requires of us foreplay before H e gives us what we need. In the book of Ruth, the mother-in-law tells Ruth, 'You have to wash.' John 15:3 reminds us, Now ye are clean through the word which I have spoken unto you. When you sit in the Gospel of Jesus Christ, you are taking a shower. When you hear the unadulterated Word of God, then the dirt and grime that you've accumulated all week long begins to wash off of you. Ask God to 'create in you a clean heart and renew a right spirit.' Stand in the word. Then wait upon the Lord to renew your strength. Pass this on to those who have found or are seeking Mr. Right. This message is not directed at the receiver, it is directed to women I know that touch other young women that can benefit from this information. We are to be Naomi's of the world today. Our young women need to be informed of how to catch and keep a man that will respect them.
If he can't meet you where you are....leave him where he's at!' Words from Pastor Jamal Harrison-Bryant:
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Hi Terry, calling in for a hug. How are you and your precious little girl going? hope you are both well. It would be summer for you over there right? we are in winter, waiting for the warmer months to creep in lol. Well, take care okay, xox Lisa and Tori-Shaye
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Hello i am 43 and i have a 4 yr old daughter with down syndrome. She is very high functioning. 2 years ago she had heart procedure and everything went well. She walked on time like all the other children, she climbs and plays very well The only thing we are working on now is her speech. The school system here in Sacramento, Ca is very good if you stay on them. I am in every commitee in Head Start and Unified school District so that keeps them on there toes. I just stay in Prayer.
Looking to save my life need to lose 120 pounds.
