Hi my name is Tish and I am a 36 …
Hi my name is Tish and I am a 36 year old married to my high school sweetheart and have two beautiful little girls. I …
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1:40pm, September 18, 2009
I had my back surgery in August. After 5 years of living in daily pain, I decided to do something about it. I was told that the healing for disc replacment surgery is much quicker than the healing for a spinal fusion (which I had in 2003) and I should be back to work in 6 weeks. Well, here it is 6 months later. The surgery failed. I'm in constant pain. I'm still out of work. I have 2 broken bones in my back that are not healing and I need surgery again. The insurance will not pay for surgery again, i've already lost the appeal. My short term disability benefits have run out. I'm applying for SSI/SSDI and have been told to expect a 18 to 24 month wait for the hearing. The sadest thing I ever had to do was to tell my daughter "there is no santa". I had to do this so when she woke up Christmas morning to no presents, she would not think it was because she was bad. I had to expain that there are no presents because I have no money. I have not told her we are losing the house; she has already endured so much. Her grades are really dropping in school and I know its because she is taking on too much emotionally. I'm trying to get her help. So, what does all this mean? I went through surgery to better my life and now, everything is as bad as it can be. Why did this happen to me? What did I do to deserve this? Since my earliest childhood memories, which for me are my grandfather molesting me, i've been dealing with pain and struggle and despite it, I am a kind, caring person who does everything she can for others. I just cant get a break. It just keeps getting worse. Everytime I say things cant get any worse - they do. I refuse to give up - my kids need me, but i'm being defeated by my own body and the system and dont know how much more I can take.
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Please don't give up--your child is depending on you. I can see you are going through a streak of bad luck. You need to be strong and take on everyday as a challenge. IT seems that things are bad and they are but now is when you will have to find that inter strength that is there. Have you contacted social services to see if they can find some help with Christmas. I know we have sponsored families through social services before. I wish you the very best. Hang in there.
Prestoni
i am so sorry your going through all of this especially at christmas time..its kind of like that here the only difference is my kids are 20 and 16 so they are old enough to understand..yes it took me 24 months to have my hearing when i went the judge ordered that i have a pshycological evaluation..then they said it would be 2 months before i heard anything and it was 30 days and i got my approval papers but still no check i just got my paperwork on november the 28th but they were dated for dec 1 2008 so im hoping to get a check soon..we have been getting food from a church that does the food thing once a month without that i dont know how we would make it without food...all of my bills are behind but i just try to take it one day at a time...hopefully one of your churches or something will help you to get presents for your children...take care and hang in there at least for your kids big hugs to you and im here if you need to talk
tinker36
I just feel terrible for you. I wish so much that there were something I could do. I know how hard it is to ask for help, but you are in a real bad spot. I could try and suggest a few things but I am sure you have tryed anything I could come up with. I will pray that maybe a TV station or someone will hear about you and make a plea for you and your situation. There are good people out there that do help but they do not go looking for people to help. Maybe you will get a Christmas Miracle you surely deserve it.
brent72
I am sorry that it is all going so wrong for you. I will pray for you and your daughter. I wish there was something I could do. Let me know if there is. Hugs Anne.
Annewentworth
I can't pray for you as I don't believe in God. Just Love inside. I thought I had a few problems but nothing compared to your vertebral/pain problems. Maybe Obama may help the American Health system (NOT!)to become inclusive of all the American citizens like in Australia. What have the banks done with all that money? How dare they foreclose on you. If I were you I'd go to the media and give them millions of dollars of Badass PR. I saw your comment on the weight loss group.And I'm so glad you're one of the few that can spell "lose" and doesn't think starvation cleanses a good idea. All my good vibes, Mindy xxx
mindlesley
Hi :) :)
I was just checking out our new members in Anxiety and Positive Choices and came upon your profile. I know what it is like to live with constant back pain. Almost ALL of my discs are ruined in one way or another with the worst being in cervical and a lumbar spine and mySi's are both horribly damaged also. I also have other injuries all from an accident in March of 2003 (Was hit by a loaded transport truck on a major highway at high speed) Just know I empathize with your pain and with the emotional and psychological factors also.
Sending you lots of Positive Vibes.
xo
Julia
JSpring
If you go with an outfit like Allsup.com they help you get SSDI the first time. It really helps if you dont have worked the past year. It seems that you have covered every nook and cranny to hep you situaation. I worked at a elementary school where 80 of the kids were homeless. There was a family support worker at the school. I would start looking at a shelter size up the ones within 50 miles of your location, see which ones will let you stay the longest. Christmas and lunch money, meals, w/d, med care, meds, birthdays etc etc are all provided. Some you do work in (the place).
auntfeather