I'm 31yrs old and suffer from Endometriosis, BiPolar Disorder, anxiety, and 2 herniated disks in my neck and back from a car accident in Oct and a few others I can't think of. I'm mostly here for help with my BiPolar. Some days are good while others I don't want to get out of bed. Everything wasn't supposed to be this hard, life isn't supposed to be this hard. I am also now dealing with cocaine addiction which i just admitted to. This place has been a good support for me and I'm happy to say that I met someone here and I'm engaged and wedding bells are actually in my future. My most wonderful fiance has come to me like an angel. I get a chance at a new life, the life I always wanted and dreamed of. I still have my bad days, those will always be there. But I now have a Guardian Angel by my side.
I'm 31yrs old and suffer from Endometriosis, BiPolar Disorder, anxiety, and 2 herniated disks in my neck and back from a car accident in Oct and a few others I can't think of. I'm mostly here for help with my BiPolar. Some days are good while others I don't want to get out of bed. Everything wasn't supposed to be this hard, life isn't supposed to be this hard. I am also now dealing with cocaine addiction which i just admitted to. This place has been a good support for me and I'm happy to say that
My dogs Duchess, yellow lab 8yrs old and Pebbles my Yorkie 5yrs old, watching movies, reading, planning my new life in Australia with my fiance!
My dogs Duchess, yellow lab 8yrs old and Pebbles my Yorkie 5yrs old, watching movies, reading, planning
November 22, 2008 7:08pm
Well this is my last journal entry to be written at my desk, in my bedroom at my parents house here in the US. Tomorrow I leave for Australia where …
November 15, 2008 11:59am
I truely feel blessed. For days my fiance has been trying to get through to me about the dwelling on the negativity and how bad it is and how its all …
enjoy your new life xx
heh hunni glad ur doing well xxx
Sure miss you guys!!!!Sad and Lonley with out you !
heh how u doing havent heard from u on a while xxx
If I'm not mistaken, yesterday was the BIG day?!?! : ) I hope that you are very happy! Hugs!
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I have been suffering from Bipolar disorder for 12yrs and my friends and family have suffered along with me. I've lost people, done things I'm not proud of. I'm tired of fighting this battle. I need to keep on my meds, keep my life in order. And now I have finally met someone to share my life with who understands its not my fault. I have an illness. I'm hoping that as each day gets better I keep taking my medicine and stop hurting those I love.
I've been suffering from chronic pain for a long time and was finally diagnosed about 5yrs ago. Since then 2 operations. The pain only goes away for 10-18mos and now is back. I have no health insurance and just suffer. It took doctors so long to believe my pain was real. Now when I need help again I get turned away. Somedays it hurts to get out of bed. I can't take the pill and feel helpless.
I always put up walls. Especially since my break up with Bob after 4 years. Then Jim came into my life and told me I was his everything, woman of his dreams and it was destiny. I didn't want to let him in but I feel into the charm and bullshit, thinking he couldn't be like the others because frankly he's not attractive, just sweet and charming so I thought. He wanted to be with me always. Then I discovered the lies. Once again I let my heart be broken.
I was diagnosed with PCOS at about 18. Sometimes I get my period. The hardest part is knowing I may never conceive a child. The cysts are painful.
I have been or felt overweight my whole life. I did lose 100lbs TWICE but it came back the first time. Even another 50lbs would make me happy =(
I started using cocaine in June 07, just a $50 piece a week... turned into $200 so fast i was buying 8 balls with my friend on a weekly basis. I thought i was ok because it was only once a week. Then twice if something 'special' happened. Soon i was snorting pills. I just admitted to my friends that i think i'm an addict after going through 30 20mg ritalin in 4days cuz i couldn't get coke. My life is so messed up. I can't believe i let it get as bad as it did
I am 30yrs old and have had depression since I came home from school at age 14 and found my father holding his service revolver to his head. He was a customs Inspector. I went in the bedroom, took the gun away, disarmed it and told him to lay down while I called my mother. He went away for almost a year. I was diagnosed BiPolar at 18.
I am paranoid about EVERYTHING lately and convinced there is a conspiracy against me. I'm paranoid my secret coke addiction will be discovered by those I haven't told, I'm afraid my best friend will stop talking to me, my ex will disappear and take the puppy, and that other friends are trying to trap me... life sucks dude
11/7/07 i had bad cramps and went to the bathroom. I never thought I could get pregnant. My dreams came true and were shattered on the same day. My best friends birthday. I think about my baby always and feel so lost an undeserving of a child. I've just always wanted to be a mama
