Trying to keep moving
March 27, 2009 9:45pm
Wow, craziness this week. I've been really sick and really struggling this week. I had a lot of victory and I have had a lot of sin. Actually one …
sobriety (days)
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goofballgl
10:34pm, March 17, 2009
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About Me
goofballgl
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About Me
I'm a student who is struggling with some issues. I'm interested in psychology. I'm a Christian. I'm also engaged.
I'm a student who is struggling with some issues. I'm interested in psychology. I'm a Christian. I'm also engaged.
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Recent Activity
November 15
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goofballgl joined the Chronic Pain support group 11:41pm
Chronic Back and neck pain…
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goofballgl joined the Incest Survivors support group 11:30pm
Sexual abuse by brother…
November 8
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goofballgl and mockingbird12 are now friends 12:05pm
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goofballgl changed their mood to OK 11:54am
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goofballgl gave mockingbird12 an I'm with you 11:53am
I pray that you will find the support you need. If you need a listening and understanding ear, I am here…
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Journal
This entry is private
This entry is private
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Update--moving forward
March 19, 2009 11:58am
Well, I have attended a few SAA meetings, but I have yet to meet any female members. However, this week I did call a woman that was recommended by …
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Struggling along
March 16, 2009 1:24pm
I have been struggling a great deal lately. I am back on the horse, but I have spent more time off it than on it lately.
Well, that is not exactly …
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Hugbook
Rainbow
Sending thoughts of healing and power your way :-)
Hug
Hey goofballgl, Wow! Thank you so much for the hugs! They were totally unexpected. I don't have any idea what I said, and to who I said it to trigger this response, but I guess something I said hit home with you. I'm delighted I was able to give you a helping hand as you walk your sacred path, your spiritual journey of recovery. I read you last journal entry before I sat down to write this response to you. It looks like things are looking up for you as far as finding a female sponsor goes, and getting one or two more women to come to your S.A.A. group on a regular basis. I can appreciate how important that would be to you, and I applaud you for taking the steps necessary to try and work things out. In reading your journal entry, I noticed some real growth and insight. Your concern about allowing yourself to be open and vulnerable before a group of men you don't know is a very legitimate one. You don't want to put yourself in a place where you can be victimized again. And let's be honest about it, this is a group of sex addicts, and 13 th stepping a new member is quite common (seducing a new group member). The other thing I saw that impressed me was your awareness of how important it is to be accountable to someone. That shows some real maturity in the program. I congratulate you and applaud you for both of your insights. Remember, awareness is a major part of the whole recovery process. You can't heal what you aren't aware of. So, even though you had a slip, I see some real progress. As I've said before, slips are to be expected. They are part of the whole recovery business. Try not to beat yourself up over it, but look at the slip as a Slight Lapse In Progress (S.L.I.P.). Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again. You're looking for progress, not perfection, and I am definitely seeing progress. Congratulations! Keep up the good work! Peace, Joy, Love, and most of all HOPE for your future! You deserve them all!
Ray of Sunshine
Well written post! I think I understand your reluctance to talk about such an intimate subject with men, that you don't know, that you can't trust, who admit to having problems of a sexual nature, and who might have ulterior motives. But I also appreciate that you give thanks for the help you have received. I think you are making great progress. Gramps
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Hug
You're not alone in this recovery process. Let the wisdom and support of the community help you along your Sacred Path (your recovery journey). Peace, joy, love, and most of all HOPE!!
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High Five
You are welcome.. I Believe you will do the same for me. Gramps
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Abstinence & Celibacy
I'm trying to be abstinent from masturbation, but struggling.
Close Sex / Pornography Addiction
I've struggled with masturbation ever since I was molested as a child. I have struggled with porn since I was exposed to it by my abuser at an early age, as well.
Open Sexual Abuse
I was molested by a baby sitter. Then my brother took over the molestation. It happened over a span of years, until I finally refused to participate. It took the form of molestation in a game, which I participated in willingly... A lot of guilt. It also put me in a cycle of masturbation and porn that I still can't shake.
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- talking to my therapist
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Working / Worked
Open Incest Survivors
Sexual abuse by brother
Open Chronic Pain
Chronic Back and neck pain
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Working / Worked
- This is my main pain control. I go every couple of weeks for an adjustment, and it brings down pain level by 3-4 points.
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- helps when I have an acute problem
- Tramadol Somewhat Helpful
- Been using it for a while helps bring down the pain some, but lately I've been having a terrible pain episode.
- Yoga Somewhat Helpful
- I try to do this a couple of times a week. It does help.
- Massage Somewhat Helpful
- I usually get a great deal of relief from this but lately it hasnt been helping so much.
