Journal Entry for June 30, 2008
June 30, 2008 7:37am
well im reading a book atm and im going to try the excersises. dealing with painfull and hurtfull situations ive been through hoping this will give …
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BobbieJ69
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About Me
BobbieJ69
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About Me
hmm! well i am a single mum, have 2 children 19yrs and 16yrs. i train and support people who have intellectual and physical disabilities, i lived in a controlled and anti social childhood by mother.my first husband was the same so i dont know how to go out and socialise that well ... hence why im here..lol
hmm! well i am a single mum, have 2 children 19yrs and 16yrs. i train and support people who have intellectual and physical disabilities, i lived in a controlled and anti social childhood by mother.my first husband was the same so i dont know how to go out and socialise that well ... hence why im here..lol
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i njoy spending time with my children. going to the beach or using my kayaks. i love to get out in the garden or out into the bush and appreciate nature and all it has to offer.i like to read self help books and memoirs.i njoy my job as i like to give.
i njoy spending time with my children. going to the beach or using my kayaks. i love to get out in the
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Close Breakups & Divorce
first husband was an alcoholic and when his violence was dirested towards his 2 children i left him after about 4 attempts.each time he made me feel guilty till i could take no more.he comitted suicide after 7mnths. although i knew he would as he tormented me for the years on how he would do it.i gave him support and tried to get him to realise he needed it but to him i had the problem.i never drank as i grew up with alcoholics.my mother and husband controlled my life totally.
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- reading self help books and listening to music helps me to relax as i will tune into the music and meditate.it has worked for me, but is a temporary solution
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- only been to 2 sessions,as i decided it was time to really confront my problems and hopefully find other ways to deal with them as im finding life a struggle a lot of the time.
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- i read self help books and try the ideas. some have worked and some are hard to concentrate on or find quiet time to practice the excercises
- Support Groups Too Soon to Tell
- this is the first support group ive joined.i want to be able to join a group in my area so im now looking into some.
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
was emotionally and physical abused by my mother and my first husband.i thought i was doing ok with this in my life as ive not done or been that sort of a person to my children. i changed the cycle so i thought i had dealt with it.but i didnt i was just different.now i dont trust anyone and if they get to close i panic in case i get hurt so pull away.if im in a relationship and my partner lies to me i wont continue the relationship. i will 4give but wont 4get.i need to change this. please help
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- only just started going and i knew my problems where there, i just dont know how to ask 4 help as i have only ever been able to rely on myself.
- Talking Working / Worked
- i got taken 2 a womens shelter with my 2 kids and for sum reason the supervisor was talking to me and it all poured out for what ever reason i dont know. i looked up as she was quiet, she was crying and i ask her was she ok .at that stage i didnt know i was the one that made her cry. but she told me. i was upset that i made her cry. not ever said much to anyone again.i felt mixed at the reaction,
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Parentnew here...well i lost my mother in 1993.i know its a while but i cant get over how the day b4 she died she actually made me see she loved me. i went home and cried and i h8 her for that because it took so long and the abuse was never addresed.my husband died in 1996 he comitted suicide a 8 mnths after me leaving him.10 yrs of abuse was enuf.
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- Getting Angry Not Working
- guilty. sad..no answers
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
i was tempted when i was 12/13 and came home from school early as i knew no one was home.i cried so much as i had had enough,of my new school a mum that hated me & told me so treated me badly. a family i couldnt talk to.i was empty so to speak. a grabbed an empty beer bottle and broke it. i placed it over my wrist but had heard that if it wasnt done right you would live, i didnt want my mother having the pleasure of saying i couldnt even do that right.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- just started therapy im now 38yrs old.all caught up with me. ive never taken drugs or drink alcohol. she only seems inyerested how i got through my life but has not given me any ideas to cope now. i found this looking for help. i get from here atm. and im looking for a group locally to attend.people who are or have gone through these situations have more advice than ive received from going to the sessions.
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