Unabletocry

Open Parenting Newborns & Infants (0-1)

I was raising two children, a boy and a girl, they were twins, and they were a handful. I had experience taking care of an ex-companion's two babies when I ran away from my old neighborhood, and now I only have Korie.

Treatments

Patience Too Soon to Tell

I had been unable to be patient before, but now I find it saves me a lot of time if I don't fret.

Research Working / Worked

I've been looking up development stages and health issues for the kids, and it's been a good use.

Open Insomnia

Let's just say I haven't slept in a very long time, and my baby girl was recently having unusual trouble too. Mostly, I've been trying to help her, instead of me. Now she seems to be recovering.

Treatments

Music Somewhat Helpful

I've tried singing/playing lullabies for her, but she just wakes up during the next few minutes

Open Anxiety

I had been having panic attacks recently, due to being overwhelemed and unemployed. Not so much anymore. At all.

Treatments

Breathwork Somewhat Helpful

Sometimes I catch myself too late and it just can't be done alone.

Meditation Working / Worked

I don't want to waste the day away.. and my kids always made it difficult anyway.

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

My father neglected me. My uncle abused me verbally, emotionally, mentally, and physically. And then some.

Treatments

Art Not Working

It just doesn't help.

Forgiveness Not Working

Can't. Won't. Maybe I'm being stupid, or bratty...

Leave Working / Worked

I left alright, but I always thought it must have just been me because abuse shows up everywhere I go.

Music Somewhat Helpful

It's distracting.

Talking Not Working

I have tried. I've said I will never try again, but maybe I'll see the day. I'm still not even sure about in cyberspace.

Open Depression

I don't have time to be diagnosed, but it's pretty clear to me now that I have a serious issue here. I've been depressed since I can remember. Sometimes distraction feels like my only joy, but someday I will feel better!

Treatments

Meditation Not Working

I've broken down while meditating.

Positive Thinking Not Working

Ha, ha, ha... good one.

Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked

Whenever I get it, it helps.

Writing Somewhat Helpful

Writing out my thoughts hasn't gone well, but poetry and such has probably kept me from going insane.

Open Panic Attacks

I had been having panic attacks before, which made taking care of my little boy and girl really tough. I haven't had one in months now.

Treatments

Meditation Working / Worked

I've avoided panic attacks by making this a habit, but once I've become anxious it doesn't help.

Open Bereavement

I lost my mother at birth, my uncle six years later, my father twelve years later, and one of my past companions was always coming close to death either by illness or wishing for it directly. I've lost a lot more people than that but it's just sad to write them all down. The loss of my baby boy, Timothy, has finally made me realize the value of life, both my companions' and my own.

Treatments

Crying Not Working

I haven't cried in a long time, but when I did nothing changed.

Getting Angry Not Working

I've done terrible things while angry about this. I need to think about what's happening now, not stress myself over what happened then. I've got to control my anger.

Helping Others Working / Worked

I've been helping some friends with their losses and fears and it's helped me gain interdependence to a comfortable degree.

Keeping Busy Working / Worked

I go for days without thinking about those who have died, and I owe it all to being preoccupied.

Music Somewhat Helpful

Just another distraction.

Poetry Somewhat Helpful

Prayer Somewhat Helpful

Yes, I've prayed before, but I don't know to whom.

Reading Somewhat Helpful

Just another distraction.

Remembering Not Working

"No. Remembering makes it harder. I don't have the time yet to sit down and just think about them. Maybe someday."- and now I do have that time. It helps a bit. I can connect it to the future.

Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful

When I get it, it helps.

Support Groups Somewhat Helpful

It helps, yes, but I'm not really using online ones right now.

Talking Somewhat Helpful

When I can talk comfortably, it helps.

Time Not Working

Mostly, I've just been numbed. It all comes back anyway when I break down. Luckily, I haven't done so in a long while.

Open Anger Management

I had been having both unreasonable and violent reactions to the anger I'd been compiling. I was beginning to worry, so I'm learning to stop myself.

Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide

My uncle commited suicide.

Treatments

Patience Working / Worked

I can be very patient with the dead.

Writing Too Soon to Tell

I'm trying this now.

Open Stress Management

Now that I'm employed, and the close friend of mine with an eating disorder is comfortably on medication, caring for my difficult baby, and living with various forms and expressions of anxiety and depression has been easier. I still need to manage this, or I'll crash again, but mostly I think I can use my past experiences to help others.

Treatments

Anger Management Working / Worked

When I began needing and trying to control my anger again I managed with better control.

Music Not Working

This doesn't help with stress it just adds another wavelength I have to follow.

Patience Not Working

Too difficult

Physical Exercise Working / Worked

This helps to calm me down, and I feel as though I'm getting something done while I am thinking things over.

Open Homelessness

I ran away from my old neighborhood ever since a friend left me. Since then I had been traveling around to different hotels and even sleeping outside sometimes. I had got money, but it was difficult for me to obtain it since I had to make sure no one found me. I was staying in a hotel, trying to find a job and a better place to live, but now I've returned to stay near my brother and sister and have a job and house of my own.

Open Shyness

I have social anxiety to extreme degrees sometimes. I often cannot even move when I'm with someone who isn't on business, and that I might have to "chat" with. This could easily have stemmed from my childhood neglect.

Treatments

DailyStrength Working / Worked

I've actually felt a little better about socializing, but only with friends.

Self-esteem Not Working

It doesn't change much.

Self-help Not Working

I can't do this alone. I used to be able to, as a very young child, but not any more. That spark is gone..

Singing Not Working

I don't sing. I've only ever sang lullibies to babies.

Socializing Not Working

I simply can't do that well, no matter how often, and with more than one person I just can't.

Open Migraine Headaches

I've been having them since I was a child, and I still haven't been able to reduce their frequency.

Treatments

Aspirin Not Working

Not anymore...

Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Somewhat Helpful

Just started, recently.

Caffeine Working / Worked

Yes. I indulge in caffeine.

Tylenol Not Working

Not anymore.

Open Blindness & Visual Impairment
Type: Other

I've been temporarily blind before, and I don't know what caused it for sure, something psychosomatic. Anyway, my left eye still hadn't worked properly since then, and I did go blind (my brother had to explain it here online), but I got surgery again and this time it works.

Treatments

Laser Surgery Somewhat Helpful

The first time I went blind wasn't entirely psychological so I had surgery to fix it, and I had better vision for a long time, but lost it. Now, after another surgery procedure, I can see chrystal.

Open Post Partum Depression

I'm not sure if I ever had this... but I felt more depressed than ever before when I took custody of my babies. I've had times where, I haven't been a good father, but I've changed since then. My little boy's death has changed my view of everything and I believe I've pulled through.

Treatments

Music Not Working

It doesn't really help..

Talking Working / Worked

Now that I've talked about it, I feel as though I can try to start over again, being very careful..