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LBunnies 
11:33pm, November 10, 2009
My husband is replacing our roof because we cant afford to have someone do it. The door bell rang and the buiulding inspector is there saying I have to have a permit. Why does the town have to take money from me to do something that has to be done to my own home..... Then it began to rain and raing hard, even though it showed no rain today. It is still raining. My huusband is stuck in traffic trying to pick up the machine to blow insulation in our attic since ther eis barely any there and our electric bill was $350 this month. I feel like everything is crashing down on me. We had to pay more for tool rentals as the job is taking longer than expected. Now we have to pray we can finish it tomorrow and the insulation, because the machine has to be returned tomorrow. And when he makes it home we have to go pay more money at the inspectors office. I thought I would be able to get our licenses done and the tags on the car, now we cant afford it.
It feels like everything is going wrong. I screamed and smashed my pen, threw a few things... Then I began to make phone calls in hopes to buy more time - but of course that didnt work. My husband will have to call into work tonight to get things done. There is more money lost.
I feel like no matter what I do crap just keeps happening to me. I try so hard to get through the days and not panic or feel horrible with my anxiety. I hate it here. It feels like no one cares. I wish I could of stayed in Southern Illinois. Atleast there everyone listened and helped if they could. To help my husband I need to go pay this permit. That means I need to drive the car. I am terrified. Its hard for me to drive - PANIC! And its raining, my son died in the car accident when it was reaining and now I dont like being in a car when its raining. If I make it there, I am sure I will be crying and freaking out. Here goes nothing.......
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LBunnie - what you are going through is called life.
One day one can feel like he is on the mountain top
and then down in a valley the next. You will make it
when you count your blessings and believe that things
can be better. Believe me, we all have a story to tell. Try to take a deep breath and think of the good things in your life and believe me it is things
you cannot buy that mean the most. I am so sorry to
learn about your son and I can see where you panic
if you had to drive in the rain. I have found that
when I face my fears, I am truly stronger than I think. I am what I think I am. Enjoy every moment
and try to be happy - no matter what is happening.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Linda
lindahoward7
Hey Bunnies
By now I am sure you are back home safe and sound. Thank God you had the money to pay the inspecters. Yeah, I know it was meant for something else, but what if you didn't have the money at all!? See, things have a way of working themselves out. When my husband redid our roof he got hurt badly and was on crutches for weeks afterwards. He limped for months after. It was horrible. In the end it would have been worth it to have had it done by professionals but like you we simply couldn't afford it. Not then, not now.
Your electric bill was $350 dollars???? what size house do you live in??? Is your pool an in ground pool? Ours is an in ground pool and our home isn't that large and we have the AC running and we live in a warm climate (South Carolina) and it's still not that high! I am glad you decided to insulate.
Well, it's my nap time. Talk to you soon.
Your Friend, Joanne
JOANNE1971
try not to focus on the rain while you are driving. It will be hard I know with the memories but think of the good memories with your son. Hugs
bobbibrowneyes