juceey's Journal

       Well we had a luvly time at the picnic and it was great to be outside of the house,the fresh air and open space is so good for the kids too,they enjoyed playing footy,cricket,rounders,frisby and just generally having the freedom to run about and make a bit of noise!!!!!!!They also eat really well and sleep better too when they have been outdoors.

        I am completely wiped out but you know how it is when you are really tired so you take your meds and climb into bed,get all comfy and ...........................................................................

..........nothing,I have tried the breathing excersizes,I have used the relaxation techniques,I have even ccounted flipping sheep and all to no avail!!!!!!!

     So here I am rambling on about nothing inparticular in the vain hope that when I've finished I will drop into bed and fall asleep?!?

     I think the main thing is that I have been dwelling on a comment that my partner made earlier that really upset me,and it has been going round and round in my head since he said it,usually we have a bit of a barny and it blows over but this time I don't seem to be able to let it go.As I said in a previous entry my mum made a comment that affected me quite profoundly,so now I really don't know if either I am being ridiculously sensitive,or maybe what these people,who are supposed to care,are saying is actually true???????

      Why me?

           Why this?

                Why now?

   If only.............................

                 Oh Hell,

                     Oh well.

       It is me,

           It is this,

               It is now,

                               Oh Hell,

                                   Oh well.