juceey's Journal

     I have had a YUK day,I feel so wiped out all I want to do is sleep.I have been frustratingly clumsy today,everything I have touched or even looked at,it seems has fallen over or spilt or dropped!!!!Consequently I seem to have spent the whole day saying either ow! or oops!Now I feel fat,lazy and useless.My body just hurts and will NOT do what I want it to and I'm fed up of being stuck in the house,and just generally really fed up today.It makes me really sad that my youngest daughter just wants to play and mummy just can't.And another thing why do I find noise so very intolerable???It never used to bother me like it does at the moment and I find if more than one person is talking I can't cope with it????And thats quite a big deal when you have 5 children as you can probobly imagine!!!I just want my life back,my life with the kids,my job,to be able to drive the car,go out when I want,not to be so dependant on others.

     Have got an appointment at the RSH tmorrow with the consultant at the rhumetology clinic,she is very nice but I always end up getting upset and crying and she always wants to admit me aaarrrggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I bet it will be more tests and no definate diagnosis, just the usual it could be this or it might be that and we'll have to run more tests and see you in week.

    Well I notice that the sun has decided to come out so maybe things will improve tomorrow after all I'm told things always look better in the morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!