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whiskeytangofoxtrot 
10:48am Wednesday
So I had a weird freaky dream last night. In the dream DH and I were "googling' something for the kids and the search brought up nothing but a bunch of posts by someone names whiskeytangofoxtrot. He glanced at one and seen the dog's names. (I of course havn't disclosed ANY names on here). He then started reading all these posts just a bit. Bookmarked the page, like he was going to read more later and moved on. All I could think about this morning was getting on here to double check myself.
So then I log in and realize, I have nothing to hide. So what if he did find all this, I have no secrets from him on here that I havent' told him to his face. So Im leaving things as they are. It was just a really, really weird dream. Especially since I havent even been on in a week because of work and everything else. Lol.
But today I just wanted to ramble I guess. Im trying my hardest to avoid negativity. He's still him, up to the same ol antics but Im on a four-day weekend and enjoying every minute of it.
Went to the water park with the kids yesterday. Got some sun and love it. Then went fishin for a couple of hours afterwards. My cast is getting alot better. I sure would LOVE to bring in one of them big ones all the guys bring in.
Gonna hit the commisary and cut the grass today(that's 3 hours of PT in the sun) I love it. And think Im gonna BBQ tonite and light up the fire pit and have a few beers. It's just so bueatiful outside today. And of course the Full Moon is incredible right now. I LOVE the fall Moons.
One of my girls is comin home from overseas in October. Says she wants to come visit me. Can't wait to hear about all her experiences over there. I miss her annoying daily texts.
EVERYONE at work has welomed me back with open arms. They all act like they have been falling apart since I left. Even though I didn't do what I left to do, they all seem to understand and are making me feel good about my decision. I am eternally greatful to these people. I am blessed to do what I do.
He starts back on 1st shift this week. For some reason, I really don't think it matters.
THe girls start back school. That I m happy about. They need to get out of the house.
I think I want to be a part of a marathon with one of the girls. It's in OCT and I have plenty of time to brush up on my running. My runner girl would LOVE to do this I think and it's for Breast Cancer. I just think I really want to do this. Im going to check out the specifics today.
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I am so glad to see that you are focusing on you. It's nice isn't it. Just to focus on us and on our wants and dreams and desires. Even though we cannot find peace completely in our life as a whole it is good that we can steal snippets here and there and recognize the beauty. I just wish our H's could.
As for the dream, hmmmm very strange indeed. I know about two months of me being on DS the H found mine. I was silly enough to have my e-mail name as my name on here. Boy it was a mess even though I had already moved out and all. He just reading snippets of things that were open and trying to twist everything into stuff that never existed. He would text me nasty little messages about things I had said on here and claiming I was trying to hook up with the guys that I have friends from here. I kept telling him I have nothing to hide and if you want to know just ask and quit assuming things because it just made him look like a bigger ASS.
Anyway it was a mess and dreamed up in his own mind. I did change my name on here and he no longer kept trying to pry into here on things I posted. I always though kept telling him anytime he wants to know I will log on and we can go over whatever he likes together so that he doesn't make any more presumptions.
Run, baby run. The marathon sounds like a great idea. I can't do much running anymore because of what the army did to my toes but I still manage to get in my aerobics in other ways.
So hey you never told me how did that Bikram Yoga week trial work out for you? Did you like it? Are you going to keep doing it?
4BooBoo
BBQ, fire pit and a few beers???? Throw football in there and you are my dream girl...JK. :-) But seriously, that's awesome.
I have some messed up dreams sometimes too. Dreamt one time that I was meeting the X somewhere and she had the moron with her, only in the dream he was a little shorter and he just stood there while I screamed insults at him. And we had no kids in the dream, which is odd b/c if we had no kids in real life, I would have dumped her years ago after the first cheating. Kids are the main reason I tried to hang on to the marriage.
Oh well, chalk that up to weird inner turmoil or something.
DadWithHope