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whiskeytangofoxtrot 
7:54am
Just a little randomness, I just can’t handle deep thoughts right now. The more I think about stuff the closer I get to that white padded cell.
Coming back to work has definitely helped lift my spirit and psyche again. At least here I feel like I’m wanted and needed and appreciated. I feel like I accomplish things here. AND it gets me out of the house. I feel useful again.
3rd shift is supposed to end for him soon. Only two more weeks of it left. That is good and bad. Good because he claims he’ll not be so tired and is going to start another diet and will feel better and is going to start going to the gym....and ‘things will get better’. I’m listening and encouraging. It’s up to him. I won’t show the doubt that I have in my heart though. The thing that sucks is it will be back to sleeping with him every night again. I have been sleeping like a baby at night since he’s not there waking me up constantly. Oh well, what can I do?
School starts for the girls soon. I am nowhere NEAR ready for this…lol. We haven’t had any extra money to get them ready so now I’ll be doing it all in the next two weeks, now that I can.
His birthday is coming up and I have NO idea what to do, get, plan or if I should do anything at all. He shows interest in nothing. He has no hobbies. I wouldn’t dare try to buy him any clothes. We can’t afford the Harley just yet. He NEVER says he wants something or talks about something that I could pick up on and surprise him with. He doesn’t like going out to eat….and he gets more blow jobs than any man on this earth probably. So I’m stuck. I don’t know what do to for him. But I’ll have to figure something out otherwise he’ll make sure all his friends know I did nothing (in fun of course)…so he thinks.
I found a Hot Yoga place. Im gonna take their trial week for 10$ and try it out. I’ve been wanting to for ages. I LOVE yoga so Im ready to do it hot! Of course he’ll bitch im not taking the girls but my 12 year olds are not in good enough physical shape and Im NOT going to set them up for passing out or hurting themselves.
I really wish I lived a little closer to someone here whom I really think is very much like me. I think we could really help each other in real life. She's almost to good to be true and I wonder if I just make it up in my head so I don't feel alone in all this. I pray that we BOTH get out of the circle of unhappiness we are in.
Ah well….think I’ll go burn one.
J
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it is up to him to get better and change his life. You can only do so much encouraging hun. As to what to get him for his bday...how about a blowjob when you go out to eat? LOL
dewey69cox
Okay seriously starting to really freak out over here. My H's B-Day is coming here shortly as well. His is Sept 7. Um when is yours? I also haven't a clue what to get em. He always says he doesn't want anything. Oh the fun. Luckily mine likes to eat out, or at least delivery. Hmm may just a pizza will do hehehe.
You wil ABSOLUTELY LOVE hot yoga. It is awesome!!!! It's the only thing I have ever found that stops the outside world from coming in. I just focus on the moves and breathing and the positions. LOVE IT. I agree though not a place for children. 90 minutes is a long time for chilren and add 110 degree temps. Not good for children. For you though ITS AWESOME!!! I personally go twice a week and wouldn't miss it for nothing.
Let me what you think after your trial week.
So ya know I have a free plane ticket to go anywhere before April of next year. Tell me when and where and I will come visit ya.
4BooBoo
as i recall we are within a short drivin distance from each other...lol. It's gonna happen, I promise. :)
whiskeytangofoxtrot