milwmom65's Journal

It is sad when all I think about is 8 more years then my 10yr old daughter can move out!! I am having such a hard time dealing with her attitude, eye rolling and sassy mouth!! I even told my friend yesterday I am tossing divorce around in my head just so I don't have to be by her. But I love James way to much to leave him and would miss my son.

 Is this normal to dislike the sight of your own child? She tells her 8yr brother how much she hates me. I found a note she wrote that she wishes me dead. Tried to talk with her many  times and all I get is the lowered eyes, curled up lip and tone of hate in her voice. I spend time with them. Lots of trips to park, library, friends home, zoo, museum, swimming pool. I never turn them down when they want to play board games. I make special treats for her such as egg salad sandwiches or ramen noodles.  She loves arts & crafts so I take her to Michaels so she can check things out and most times I let her pick out new stuff.

  As long as we are doing what she wants to do she is all smiles but as so as we get home she puts that chip back on her shoulder and the wall back around her.

  I guess all I can do is keep chipping away. She has to run out of cement soon.

  I remember though not standing the sight or sound of my mom. My mom just put me on ignore and dealt with the other 4 kids. I don't want to do that. Her & I didn't have a relationship until I was 32yrs old and that was only cause I had my daughter.

 Oh well. who said motherhood was easy??