kylieml78's Journal

Well what a waste of time going to the hospital was for my appt. I know doctors hear it every day. But when they wont listen it makes us very frustrated. I can not put into words how I feel. I had an internal and of course nothing much is happening. But the doc said they would talk to their consultant and book me in for an induction next week. Well then she comes back and says no we wont book you in, come back next week and we will see.

Throw the dog a bone and then take it back. I burst into tears. They keep telling me they are not worried about the size of the baby. Well its not their body is it? Its mine. 2 of my babies were 10p. My partners father was 11.5p. I DO NOT want to have another big baby. My body is struggling as it is.

It feels like they are not listening to me. I have had it. I cant sleep properly, I am so sore, I am frustrated.

To topit off I ring my grandma to tell her about my appt and she abuses me before I can say something. My mum wrote her aletter saying things about me and now my grandma wants nothing to do with me. My mum is a liar and a rotten mum. I was beginning to have a great relationship with my grandma and now I cant.

I reckon I will just go to bed and stay there. I feel like I cant cope anymore!!!