Momof3monkeys's Journal

Ever since Nathan's surgery date has been assigned I have been extremely emotional.  I haven't had has many ups and downs since I was a hormonal teenager!   Some days I feel very optimistic and think everything is going to turn out fine, other days I feel so anxious about his chances.  I am so worried I am going to lose my little boy. 

My kids and I have shed many tears together talking about Nathans upcoming surgery.  I am very proud of Kris and Mykaela.  They are expressing their concerns so well.  We have talked about how they can help, by using hand sanitizer at school, and staying away from children who are sick.  They have come to terms with the fact that no friends can come over right now.  Kris wanted to see if he was a blood match, so he could donate blood for his little brother.  How cool is that?  They both are very good with Nathan, and play with him everyday.  They get him laughing, and he just lights up when they are home.

My friends are very supportive.  Many have come with me to help when I am donating blood, and have offered to be there for support during many of our hospital visits.  One friend in particular has been amazing.  She also happens to be Nathan's godparent.  She is right now organizing a big fundraiser for us, to help cover some of our costs due to his illness.  She is doing a "heart to heart" fundraiser at our church.  Families will be able to donate whatever monetary amount they want and put a supportive message on a heart, for us to read while Nathan is in for his surgery.  She has also gone to the school, and all our school expensive for Sept and Oct have been covered by the school.  God truly has blessed us, with all the supportive and amazing people he has put into our path this year. 

While helping my friend come up with a paragraph about Nathan's heart condition for church.  I pulled out my papers, and reread them.  I came across something that well scared me even more than I was before :(.. I am just going to be in denial, and pretend I didn't read it.. I can't face that possibility..ugh..

Uh oh Nate is stirring gotta go....Might try and write again sometime