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LindaSWR 
HI all,
I'm at work now and sometimes, most of the time lately, it's very hard to keep my mind on work! But, I know that I have to try to get my head on straight and, eventually, get my life back on track!
I'm doing "okay" today...which is good because I refuse to let the idiot I live with get me down! He is very selfish and wants attention by only doing a backkrub, massaging his feet, or giving him a total body massage (Can you imagine that????), but doesn't want me to love him at all. He never gives me any respect or attention after I show my love for him!!!! I always bend over backwards to show my love for him, but he is slowly destroying any feelings I have left for him! He does nothing to make me feel good! He doesn't even talk to me! I know he doesn't care about me at all, but I'm willing to show him how much I love him...but he doesn't even care how much I show my love! But, I feel that my love is slowly turning into resentment and hatred for him! And I've never hated anybody...just HIM right now! And the OTHER WOMAN for letting him buy her presents and gifts, and letting him destroy two families!!!!!
I'm going through stages, I believe, now in my so-called marriage! First there was denial that this was happening, and then there was anger and wanting to get back at him, and soon there will be another stage I feel coming on such as acceptance and wanting to take care of myself and letting go and let God take care of it for me! That is what I really need to do because I can't control it. Only God can control it now. The affair is going on at work and he has to work everyday and they work together, so they always see each other. I can't stop him from working.
Sorry, I sometimes write a book! LOL! He's in love with another woman (and she's married, too, with her own family! I guess some men don't care if a woman is married or not, or if they hurt another family as well as their own). No morals!!!
Thank you for letting me vent again, and I appreciate all your support and caring.
Have a great day. Hope you all are doing well today. Please feel free to vent to me, too. I am here for you all!
I guess we have to take one day at a time, surrender our trouble to the good Lord above, try to make ourselves happy, be thankful for what we DO have, and look forward to a brighter future! That's what I want to do...and I WILL do that with the love and support I have from you all and the help of God above!
Thank you for being there for me! I love you all!
Much love and hugs,
Linda
