Journal

        Well i need to scream and yell at something or one so this page is it sorry to all who read this not ment at you . I am so so so tired of hurting call my dr he says well honey take these pain killers that dont help you and try and rest ok how the hell am i suppose to do that when i cant fricken move a inch and a baby who god love her is a handful oh but this stupid little pill will help you. oh you cant hold nothing down try some tigan befor you eat if that dont help i will give you some regulan to take to help you. heck need a pill to do everything a pill to eat a pill to move a pill to stop craping a pill to help the other pill and one just cuz its pretty i guess oh dont for get the humira shot every two weeks that dont help for shit but its ok that is how life is by the way you have 2 kids to get ready for school to start and dr and conslers for your adhd son dont for get his angermanagement or piano lesson oh band practice is coming too shit told my husband a bulets cheaper no i am not going to kill myself thats just dumb oh dont for get that pill sence the humira messes up your gland your hormons rage i eat right exersise and take meds i feel like a 80 year old and only 26 feels like someone is takeing hot pokers and gabing my sides and squezing me all at the same time every fricken move i make my husband helps but he dont understand he is like all the other people who use the internet dont really know crap but try and tell you about your problem well i need to go need to lay down cant see threw the tears

 Well lets see sometimes life sucks and i mean it. was doing good for a few days now hurting dont have any idea why one minute fine next on the floor in tears. seen my dr said my transend colon was inflamed what the hell that mean not sure. sorry for langue but i am just so tired of hurting. dont worry i took my chill pill should be fine but dose anyone know what i mean. how can i take care of my children and my house when i never know one day to the next what the weather will bring. my poor husband who never knows jumps in and does alot and i am sure glad for that tell him all the time. but sometimes i feel like such a burden on everyone like today need my friend to come sit with me because i was in so much pain i could not pick my daughter up to changer her pamper. its ok its all good what dont kill us makes us stronger right. well thats it for now going to take another pain killer maybe a half glass of wine to activate it and lay down oh and a tigan (nausia) works great. crap dont forget the lomotil man i feel like a 90 year old women in a 26 year old body. well oh well off to bed

well i know better i ate some cookies today and guess what forgot to ask if they had nuts.lets say i am paying for it now only took about half a nut too and would like to cry. oh well life goes on my diabetic son had a brithday today so i bit the tears and slowly moved around the party he just turned 11 been saying hes 11 for a while though lol. threw him a dino pool party it was good and need to see my inlaws i tell you there is no rest when you have kids. but i bet most of you know what i am talking about exspecally when you have a 8 month old when she crys she dont care you hurt she just wants her mommy lol. thats ok she is my mirical dr say i could never carry well once again God proved medican wrong because she is here healthy and mine.