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I was just reading back over some of my journal from the last year. And I gotta say I would definitely not believe I am the same person who wrote them. I was so lost and desperate back then. And truly even though I was always saying we are gonna make it thru this, I never really believed we , or at least I , would do it. I must say I'm glad we did. And I'm glad that on this journey I met a few really good friends, who have stood by me and picked me up when I would have stayed down. Hope I've managed to do that for you guys a few times also. Even though I'm truly sorry you had to be on the same road I was on.
One of our bookkeepers at work died suddenly yesterday. He was middle aged, super nice guy, always clowning around, making people smile when they didnt want to. He got sick with pneumonia and 2 or 3 days later he was gone. First words outta this guys mouth when he met me, which was the night he was supposed to start training me to be the gas stations bookkeeper, were " I heard you're a nut" and I looked at him and said " Yes a brazil nut or pistachio because they are very expensive but so worth it" and he cracked up. I sure am gonna miss him.
Life is good guys. There a always gonna be bills to pay, things breaking to be repaired or replaced, people getting sick and getting better, or maybe not. But life is good if we will just let it be. And I for one am ready to try to just roll with it. Alone. I feel good about that too.
Smile for me you guys, cause today I am at peace, however short it is, today I got it and I'm loving it. Love ya all.
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Hi sis, my pc is actually working tonight. I am so sorry about your friend. I love this journal, you sound so full of hope. Really what else is left for us to have but hope for a brighter day. You have a knack at making me feel better, I am truly blessed to have met you. Cherish the day of peace and I will pray that tomorrow brings the same peace. Love ya, Pam
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Laura, I think that we were all destined to cross paths here and though we're only here because of our losses we've been able to find friends and build friendships that have played a major part in our hearts finally beginning to heal. I know we're not completely there yet but like you said we're in a much different place than we were a year ago.
Good for you for feeling that sense of peace today. If yours is like mine it tends to come and go at random but it sticks around a little more lately than it did before.
I'm sorry about your friend, that's pretty much what happened to Dean only I thought it was the flu but it turned out it was pneumonia and 4 days later he was gone too.
I like the way you're lookin' at things, Laura. You definitely are a bright and shining star...
Love and hugs, Judi
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