Sequel
April 29, 2008 10:48am
I have not written anything on Daily Strength in almost a year. My life just... changed too much to support this interaction. But I've read. I am …
Littlesoul
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About Me
Littlesoul
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About Me
My life is a serpentine path, winding up the mountain side. On one side, I brush a shoulder against the hardest rock there is; on the other, my foot slips off into a void so deep that the great creation is beneath me, and the tops of the trees. Every so often, the path turns completely, and everything I was looking forward to is now behind me, and then again, and again. Rock slides aim for my skull and make dents in it anew, every day. And yet, with every step, higher and higher I go, some day to stand at the summit, to survey it all from above, to see the road I've walked - and to rest.
My life is a serpentine path, winding up the mountain side. On one side, I brush a shoulder against the hardest rock there is; on the other, my foot slips off into a void so deep that the great creation is beneath me, and the tops of the trees. Every so often, the path turns completely, and everything I was looking forward to is now behind me, and then again, and again. Rock slides aim for my skull and make dents in it anew, every day. And yet, with every step, higher and higher I go, some day to
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Interests
Interreligious dialogue, philosophy, medical ethics and interpreting, patient advocacy, teaching, law, writing, reading, music, dance, family, science fiction, social justice, rest. A little rest in the midst of it all.
Interreligious dialogue, philosophy, medical ethics and interpreting, patient advocacy, teaching, law,
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Journal Entry for August 16, 2007
August 16, 2007 12:12pm
Nothing much new is happening, which is good because there's enough old stuff to keep me occupied. A lot of work, and I wonder how I'll …
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Journal Entry for July 9, 2007
July 9, 2007 10:42am
Friends, be careful with Botox. I know it helps the majority of people, and I'm glad. But it was probably the biggest mistake I've made this …
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Journal Entry for July 5, 2007
July 5, 2007 9:24am
And she is back!
Not for the lack of wanting have I been away. Life is crazy, but some of it is good crazy.
I'm on Lyrica now, and it seems to …
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Journal Entry for June 16, 2007
June 16, 2007 3:31pm
I haven't written for almost a month and I've come to DS only to read my hugs and messages. For some reason beyond understanding, my friends …
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Ray of Sunshine
Thinking about you and wanted to say hello. Have a great Friday! Hugs...Lesa
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Hiya, just thought i would come and say hi, so hi =] Hope your doing ok, love and hugs =] x0x0x
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Just to say I'm thinking of you.
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thanks for the kind words....even though I'm not on DS very much, I still think of my good friends here all the time. take care
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You will get better. i know
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Close Chronic Pain
My story is hard to formulate because doctors are still trying to diagnose everything. Currently, I am being treated for chronic headaches, migraines, temporal lobe seizures, depression, and several systemic disorders. Most docs blame it all on an old trauma/PTSD.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Bad side effects: nausea, increased pain, disorientation.
- Hydrocodone Not Working
- Worked wonders the first three times, then caused a day of overwhelming nausea, auditory and visual changes, disorientation and general "doping."
- Depakote Working / Worked
- Worked very well for a year. Side effects were some weight gain, tremors, and short term memory problems. Then it just ran its course and I developed tolerance.
- Topamax Not Working
- No help. Side effect: tingling/buzzing around the face, especially nose, then hands. Very distracting.
- Lamictal Not Working
- No help. Side effect: uncontrollable food cravings. No other thoughts but food.
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Long ago story. Standard psych symptoms (flashbacks, nightmares, triggers, self-injury, depression), many somatic symptoms (chronic headaches, muscle pains, sexual dysfunction, digestive dysfunction), brain damage with temp lobe seizure, etc. The frustration is: because of the severity of the trauma, many treatments won't work, some docs won't even take my case, and they just chuck everything up to PTSD and wash their hands. One good one is sticking by me: my therapist. But even he can't help.
Treatments
- Art Too Soon to Tell
- Expressing it feels important. Gives insight. But does it help or hurt?
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working
- In therapy for over 3.5 years now. Whenever we get close to the trauma itself, my symptoms shoot up. Relaxation makes me panic. Go figure.
- EMDR Not Working
- The EMDR specialist didn't risk taking on my case. Said my case was too severe.
- Supportive Care Somewhat Helpful
- Of course it's helpful. Who'd say no?
