It Happened Again!!!!! ;( ;( ;( WHY????
May 11, 2009 3:02am
I just cannot believe it but it's happened again... let me count the times in 6 yrs that God and the universe have given me this …
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ralop
3:04am, May 11, 2009
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About Me
ralop
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About Me
Nature, Gardening, Faeries & Flowers, Grandkids, Animals, Water ponds, Water fountains, Water Energy, Rain Storms, Snow Storms all are my Spiritual regenerators. Used to be climbing around on the coast or in the Sierras or hills and mountains of Oregon. If it was outside it was for me. Now I just Try Hard to Look at My Life Diff. It is still a resignation, not a real letting go of anything. Part of why they nicknamed me stubborn I guess. reality is: Serious Worsening Chronic Pain has been a daily Blessing & Curse for 5 yrs. now. I believe when we change the way we look at things the things we look at change, and so, I always find what I'm looking for.
Nature, Gardening, Faeries & Flowers, Grandkids, Animals, Water ponds, Water fountains, Water Energy, Rain Storms, Snow Storms all are my Spiritual regenerators. Used to be climbing around on the coast or in the Sierras or hills and mountains of Oregon. If it was outside it was for me. Now I just Try Hard to Look at My Life Diff. It is still a resignation, not a real letting go of anything. Part of why they nicknamed me stubborn I guess. reality is: Serious Worsening Chronic Pain has been a daily
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Interests
I love real Faeries. my grandma Hazel taught me about spiritallity and the life that is in all things, yes even a rock, by the American River in the foot hills of the Sierra Mnts as a young child. We walked up to Marshals statue where he points down to where they first found gold. She is and was my saving Grace whenever I go thru any trials in life her teachings from the age of one to the age of seven are all I've needed to expand upon to grow spiritually so that I may remember I am in this world but of this world and I may rise above whatever it is in a spiritual manner.
I love real Faeries. my grandma Hazel taught me about spiritallity and the life that is in all things,
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Recent Activity
June 18
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ralop wrote a discussion post in the Back Pain support group: Facet Joint Medial Branch Block 10:01pm
Has anyone had this test before a radio frequency lesioning of the medial branch nerves? I am looking…
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ralop wrote a discussion post in the Chronic Pain support group: Facet Loint Medial Branch Block 9:56pm
Has anyone had this proceedure done and what was your specific experience?? I believe I had it once before…
April 5
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ralop turned 49 12:00am
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goal update
March 10, 2009 8:00am
FEEL GOOD ABOUT THE WORK I'VE BEEN DOING. I DO ALL I CAN PAIN PERMITTING AND FEEL I AM DOING WELL WITH OTHERS. HARDEST PLACE TO WORK THIS …
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NEW YEAR?????????
January 12, 2009 5:51am
I HAVEN'T WRITTEN HERE FOR A WHILE. PRETTY TIRED RIGHT NOW. WILL TRY TO MAKE AN ENTRY AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK. I MUST KEEP A PAIN JOURNAL AND IT IS …
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Journal Entry for November 28, 2008
November 28, 2008 8:40pm
WOW MY GOAL HAS TAKEN ON A LIFE OF ITS OWN AND I AM JUST RUNNING BEHIND IT ATTEMPTING TO KEEP UP. MANY TO ADVOCATE FOR HERE ON OUR DS SITE. I AM …
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Hey, how are you... Give everybody a big fat hug for me . I turned 23 on Thurs. what a yr, Tell Uncle Charlie to be nice to you,
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Hey, hope you are well I turned 23 today yeah!!!!!!!!!
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Support Groups
Close Chronic Pain
INITIAL LOWER LUMBAR (BACK) INJURY 1985. BEGAN DISABILITY 2004. IGNORANT ABUSIVE DR.S, FAMILY, FRIENDS & GEN. PUBLIC. I CONTINUE STRUGGLE FIND ED/SKILLED DR.S OR RIGHT MEDS/ AMOUNT MEDS & PROCEDURE LESSON CHRONIC PAIN. FAMILY STILL IGNORANT/ABUSIVE 5YRS. PAIN FOR ME IS MANY DIFF KINDS PAIN LIKE NERVE, ARTHRITIS ACHE, INSANE OUT CONTROL PAIN AND MANY MORE ALL FROM SAME INJURY AREA. NOW DECIDED LOOK SUPPORT ON LINE. HERE AND OTHER PLACES.
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Not Working
- TOO INJURED TO USE
- Cymbalta Somewhat Helpful
- I DO BETTER WITH OLD TRICYCLIC ANTI-DEPRESSANT IMIPRAMINE BUT CANNOT TAKE ANY MORE.
- Flexeril Working / Worked
- BUT DOCS WON'T GIVE TO ME SINCE BEGIN YRS OF PAIN OR WITH DRUGS USED CURRENTLY.
- Heat Working / Worked
- DON'T WANT TO LEAVE HOME WITHOUT IT.
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- WORKED FOR LITTLE WHILE, PAIN WAY ABOVE MEDS ABILITY BY 2005
- Lyrica Working / Worked
- WORKED WELL FOR SOMEPAIN AND SLEEP BUT SIDE EFFECTS TOO MUCH TO CONTINUE.
- Marijuana Not Working
- NOT USED SINCE 1990 CLEAN SOBER NOW SINCE 1997 NO DRUG/ALCOHOL USED FOR ANY PURPOSE UNLESS DR. PRESCRIBED.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- THIS WORKS AS FAR IT GOES TO KEEPSTRESS DOWN BUT HARD TO HEOP IF PAIN GETS OUT OF CONTROL
- Methadone Not Working
- ALLERGIC
- Morphine Working / Worked
- WORKING BUT DOSE NOT CORRECT YET
- Naproxen Not Working
- MAKES ME TOO SICK
- Oxycodone Working / Worked
- WORKS @ 30 MG 3 EA.DAY, BUT LAST DR. LOWERED ALL MEDS THIS ONE TO 2 EA.DAY
- Physical Therapy Not Working
- ALWAYS HAS MADE INJURY WORSE
- TENS Not Working
- MAKES PAIN WORSE
Close Back Pain
Original injury ripped lower lumbar ligaments, tendons 1984 pushing mop. Degenerative disease, hard labor, 2 babies, no good med care, & 20 yrs time, current herniated cant work daily severe chronic worsening pain life very different future looks grim
Treatments
- Bedrest Somewhat Helpful
- Spend a lot time in bed w/heat pad, no position for very long.
- Epidural Injection Working / Worked
- worked for last 9 mos now for sciatica pain down legs etc. but last injection the fluid medicine leaked right back out the nerve cannals, no room between discs any more.
- Flexeril Somewhat Helpful
- Heat Working / Worked
- 99 percent time relieves some pain I spend most time with one.
- Hydrocodone Not Working
- not strong enough for 4 yrs now
- Ibuprofen Not Working
- makes pain worse
- Morphine Working / Worked
- using currently but dose is still not lrg enough so not stable.
- Naproxen Not Working
- makes me very sick and dizzy.
- Physical Therapy Not Working
- always made worse.
- Relaxation Working / Worked
- works as well as it can.. use all time
- Stretching Working / Worked
- I stretch all time to relieve break-through pain, and stiffness from arthritis.
- TENS Not Working
- made pain more intense not sure if use correctly or in right places.
Open Arthritis
ARTHRITIS RUNS ON MY MOMS SIDE OF THE FAMILY. I BEGAN TO EXPERIENCE IT IN MY HANDS AT AN EARLY AGE, NOW IT IS RUNNING HAVOC THRU MY SPINE AND I THINK NOW IN MY HIPS TOO. BUT I SUFFER MOST FROM THE SPINE
Treatments
- Glucosamine/Chondroitin Too Soon to Tell
- NOT SURE YET
- Ibuprofen Not Working
- NEVER WORKS FOR ME PERSONAL PROBLEM I THINK LOL
- Pain Management Clinic Too Soon to Tell
- CONSIDERING ANOTHER ONE WILL UPDATE WHEN I HAVE NEWS
- Relafen Working / Worked
- DR. BEGAN ME ON THIS AGAIN AT THE DOSE OF 750MG 2 X DAY 1 WK AGO AND IT IS HELPING
Open Degenerative Disc Disease
I'VE RECEIVED THIS ONE FROM MY MOMMY. SHE LOST HER FIGHT AT 36YRS OLD DUE TO COMPLICATIONS FROM BACK SURGERY... I AM 48... DEALING WITH THE DISABILITY, THE PAIN AND THE RUINED LIFE TOO
Open Healthy Relationships
16 yr. relationship. Left 3x in first 4 yrs.no leaving for previous 12 yrs. Kids waiting to be treated and loved as family and I for at least act aS married couple with committment even if no piece of paper. I have behaved this way and I act as a we... but he is still a single male who stayed true till I became physically ill and it's been down hill since then. We have kids and g-kids and memories and I don't want to leave it all without healthy effort to solve problems or healthy break-up.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Working / Worked
- He will not go uses every excuse he can find.
- Patience Working / Worked
- Trying to treat him how I would want to be treated if I was fearful and in denial. No.. not working.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Neither is able to communnicate clearly to the other. Although I think I understand him completely and I am the one not being heard.
- Writing Working / Worked
- e. Shared very little with him,Keeping me sane and helps to keep me able to have the patienc
Open Alcoholism
Sober for 7 yr.s then out 3 mo.s now sober 11 plus yr.s & most days r good. Have A.A. 4 support, but have been physically disabled for 5 plus yr.s now and cannot get to the mtg.s I would like to for sanity sake. Being stuck in the home I must say thanks to God for the world of the internet for support for many of my life's conditions, if not for them I would be very, very, ill, rather than weller for all the support. Thanks to all of you who frequent this internet support for me & others.!!
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- Working when I really use it!
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- Still working.
- Al-Anon Working / Worked
- Working when I really use it!
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- Wouldn't suggest it as it's dangerous to do. Use the doctors, they know what they're doing.
- Sleep Working / Worked
- worked.
Open Sciatica
SCIATICA IS JUST 1 OF MY LOWER BACK PROBLEMS. I HAVE HERNIATED DISCS & DEGENERATIVE DISC DISEASE. 2 OF THE DISCS ARE REAL BAD. ONE IS BONE ON BONE WITH NERVES EXPOSED,& EXTREMELY IRRITATED. SCIATICA IS 1 SYMPTOM FROM AN INJURY OF LOWER LUMBAR MUSCLES & TENDONS. I WORKED HARD PHYSICAL LABOR, LIKE OWNING & OPERATING FIRE WOOD BUSINESS, ROAD CONSTRUCTION FLAGGER, & RANDOM ON YOUR FEET TYPE EMPLOYMENT.
Treatments
- Ibuprofen Working / Worked
- NOT WORK
- Stretching Working / Worked
