christinajeanne's Journal

It has been a very slow week for me. I seem to be taking longer then usual to get things done this week. I thought I would be posting sooner but then things just got hectic. But, not really in a bad way or if so I'm not stressing about it like I normally would. That is such a pleasant change for once. I am actually feeling really awesome about things right now. I had lunch with my friend on Tuesday it went great! We talked and she gave me lots of insights I hadn't really thought of. She said maybe one of the reasons I haven't taken my constitution or GED yet is because I'm scared of brain freeze and not having the answers. That was actually an aha moment for me because she is right. I am afraid of failing so bad that I'm scared to even try. I've let that fear stop me before. But, now I am on a mission if I know something is right for me then why should I let fear stop me? You never know unless you at least try. She also asked me if I ever thought of nursing? I told her I actually had but what not really sure how to go about it. She said she has a friend who works at a nursing facility who might be able to get me a job doing something there and told me about some nursing schools in my area that even pay for housing while you are going to school. That sounds awesome to me and I believe this is something God is leading me to because I've been asking which direction to take. The other day I was about ready to just quit working for my aunt. But, then I stopped and thought maybe this is the place I really am supposed to be for now and I need to just do the best I can to get through it. Yesterday I stood my ground and even though it was quite scary I am very proud of myself.