christinajeanne's Journal

I want to wake up in your arms. I want you by my side. The only thing that keeps me sane is that we will be together again. I will love you until the day I die. You bring me back to life. You are the man of my dreams. I don’t want you to go and I don’t want to walk away. Without you my heart would break. Without you there would be no point. I know we’ve had our ups and downs but we will get through this. We always find a way. My heart would break without you. You give me a purpose in life. The thought of seeing you again is what keeps me going. This is my sorry. This is my apology. I know I can’t always be perfect I can’t always be happy it’s not always OK please understand sometimes I just have to pour my heart out but it has nothing to do with you. The last thing I wanted to do was to make you feel guilty and hurt. I could never try to break you down. I would never intentionally hurt you. You have my heart in your hands. You are the one. You are my future. You are my future husband and father of my children. I know because the lord told me this. I might sound crazy but it was love at first sight. It was all meant to be. I feel it in my heart and soul. Sometimes I just need to cry it’s nothing against you. Don’t you see that I’m sorry that I hurt you? Sometimes I say stupid things. I’m just trying to wear my heart on my sleeve I’m just trying to be honest. I’m sorry If I hurt you I’m sorry that I made you feel guilty I didn’t mean to make you feel bad this in my apology. I cry on your shoulder because I trust you with every part of me not to put it all on you or make you feel bad. But I’ll be OK as long as I have you. I won’t walk away or break your heart I just ask that you don’t break mine.