i am unstoppable
December 16, 2008 1:31am
so wednesday im dropping 100, grabbing 15 bars. its been over a year with this so i can justify it, but still, its all part of the same …
Carly19 
12:07am, May 20, 2009
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About Me
Carly19
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About Me
My life is black velvet, electric toxicity, vibrance, vibrato. I am X, a variable, rated XXX and x plus v plus i. I am a rockstar. I've been to hell, tipped their bartender and decided that mortality suits me much better. I'm an insomniac and I've seen more sunrises than I can count. I'm a writer, a poet, an artist. I sculpt words and define experiences. My life is wonderful, and I am proud of that.
My life is black velvet, electric toxicity, vibrance, vibrato. I am X, a variable, rated XXX and x plus v plus i. I am a rockstar. I've been to hell, tipped their bartender and decided that mortality suits me much better. I'm an insomniac and I've seen more sunrises than I can count. I'm a writer, a poet, an artist. I sculpt words and define experiences. My life is wonderful, and I am proud of that.
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Interests
I believe in existentialism, definitions, psychosomaticism, really great people, personification of anything, defying the laws of physics, creating a boneless existence within a world made of skeleton confines, amorphism, being intellectually arrogant, hop skip jumping, balls to the wall, conforming to the uncomformists, and America in its full entity.
I believe in existentialism, definitions, psychosomaticism, really great people, personification of anything,
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Journal
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i cannot sit still
November 24, 2008 1:49am
it is impossible for me to have a friday night at home just chilling out. because no, i have to be downing dxm, then call up a girl who just …
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For LivW's eyes only: Take 2
November 18, 2008 12:43am
The official essay that got me into college...
I could not give a specific date, or even a specific instance when my infatuation …
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Adventures of 3 Love-Struck Youth
November 12, 2008 8:22pm
in this:
angie- april, the love of my life, my one and only, my missing person. the day she told me she loves me was the best day of my …
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For LivW's eyes only
November 10, 2008 12:29am
I'm tagging this as tragic because it's pretty tragic that i got into college with these essays.
Evaluation of a 17-year-old insomniac …
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Hugbook
Hug
I wishh I still had your number. the thing is I didnt store it soo that iff one day you were like im done texting all I would have to do is erase my inbox and I would never know the number haha its lame I know... buttttt I know you still have my number sooo text mehhh! a lot has been going on. im coming out. slowly but surely.
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Hug
wtf!? I just noticed that!.. it deff said this face explains my feelings towards you.. then it was like miss you! I forget. it was cute but now its lame. =(
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Miss You
Gold Star
Just wanted to send along my hellos... hoping to hear from you soon!
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Hug
idk if your on my butt im back on ds (wannabout=pLaOiSgTe)
miss you.
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Support Groups
Close Prescription Drug Abuse
I was addicted to Vicodin and have been abusing prescription pills since I was 15. My friend held an intervention and I've been sober from any sort of painkiller for 10 1/2 months. I sometimes self-medicate and change the dosages on my own prescribed medications, but I'm learning to trust the doctor.
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- Residential Treatment Center Working / Worked
Open Bisexuality
I am way too confused.
Open Bipolar Disorder - Teen
I am bi-polar with a tad bit of schizo thrown in. Before my meds, in my manic stages I thought I was the daughter of God and that I'm meant to be a martyr for human kind. In my depression stages I would describe my head as made of solid wood. Now that I've spent 5 years on meds, I can function without becoming delusional.
Treatments
Open Sex / Pornography Addiction
Carly19 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Coming Out
Carly19 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Sexual Abuse
Carly19 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Gay & Lesbian Teens
Carly19 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Bereavement - Teens
My mother died when I was 3 years old from cancer. My best friend died when I was 9. A few months ago, my beautiful grandmother also died, and it's been a huge blow.
Treatments
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
- Time Working / Worked
Open Acute Lymphocytic Leukemia (ALL)
I was diagnosed in December of 1998 and pronounced cured in August of 2001. It was 2 years of hard work, pain and sometimes I feel like I lost 2 years of my childhood. I am so thankful to be alive now, though, and honestly, I would not trade my experience for the world, because I know that it made me who I am today.
Treatments
- Chemotherapy Working / Worked
- Methotrexate Working / Worked
Open Teen Sexuality
Carly19 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Self-Injury
i first started cutting when I was 13, and although i would like to pretend i have stopped, the truth is that once you start it never leaves. it's been 9 months, though.
Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges
Carly19 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Phobia
Ophidiophobia
Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
i smoke weed every day. i should probably quit but have no desire to. i barely go to class anymore, show up late for my job and smoke myself obliterated daily. i should quit, but if i gave it up all i would have is school and work and doing all that sober would just be ridiculous and not even worth it.
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
Open Sports Injuries
I fractured my right fibula but played an entire season of soccer on it so it never healed right. Recently I had a bad experience that resulted in my collapsing on the metro and I don't remember very well but something definitely happened to my ankle. it's swollen up again, there's a hard bump on it. I also had webbed fractures and deep contusions on my right foot. i also have left knee issues. 29 seasons of competitive soccer will do that to a girl, i guess.
