angeles06's Journal

Well I know I have not been on here too much, my life has completely changed for the better, but I have found myself very busy now that Mili is here. My whole life and schedule revolves around what she wants and when she wants lol... I hardly have time for me or to do house chores since she has been very fuzzy most of the day and all night. But she is adorable even when she is crying her little heart out and I have no clue what she needs. I have found myself crying with her a few times. Thank god my mother is around and the fact that we live with them has been very helpful since she helps me with her during the nights so that my husband can get some sleep. Everyone is in love with her but I have found to be somewhat of a little over protective so my husband says. My mother in law and sister in law have the tendency of being sick and want to come over to see her and hold her which I dont let and have warned my husband that I will not allow it. Im so scared that she can get the flu or even worst the swine flu. Anyways they have noticed that and are not to fond of me right now. I think that as her mother I have the  divine right to protect her against anyone and anything, thats what mother do right??? Well when she has come over she wants to tell me what to do or how to do it, its annoying, so I soke in what I need and the rest let it go in through one ear and come out the other.

I had my post partum appt, and everything has healed so she says but I did mention that intercourse is very painful I did have one stitch but she says it looks very healed. But the 2 times we have done it, it hurts so bad that im almost crying because it feels to tight in there. Has this happened to anyone after having a baby, or will it all heal and things will be back to normal. On another note I need to set a goal plan to loose all the baby weight and more from the past pregnancies. So thats probably gonna be my neew years resolution. Breast feeding is going great she is a pro and is so chunky... Her 2 month appt will ne on the 9th of November and she will get her vaccinations. Poor baby she is going to cry and I will probably cry too. Its an amazing feeling to hear her crying and no one can make her stop but as soon as she is in my arms she stops, she knows who her mommy is.. and I love that feeling

What else has been going on hmmm... Well my dad will be going for his last surgery to the piece of his cranium he is missing replaced. Im drained and stressed again. We thought that my sister was pregnant , well she took 2 pregnacies test and it kept saying positive so we thought she was. Then I took her to planned parenthood and again she was indeed pregnant. But then a few days later she woke up one morning and called me telling me she was bleeding. She was freaking out since last year she miscarried, her husband is in South Carolina in basic training for the army so she is living with us. She was devasted she thought she was having another miscarriage. So her mother in law took her in to the ER and to make the long story short they told her she was not pregnant not because she had miscarried but because she was never pregnant. They told her that the stress of knowing her husband was going to get deployed to Iran had caused her period to be delayed and the bleeding was her period. The stress had made her body raise the pregnancy hormone that made the test come back positive. They did more testing to verify that she was not pregnant they all came back negative. So that was something weird but true.

I have not forgotten all you ladies hear I will be catching up on journals on all my breaks that my baby gives me... she's the boss lol... Also  will be uploading some more pics of Mili so you can see how big she is now. She definetly does not look like she was ever a preemie. I love being a mom and have found many people asking us when we are having our next. Doctor said a couple years and I agree maybe more will see what lies ahead of us. I definetely want to give Mili a sibling or siblings but I know my body and I will have to go to the Maternal Fetal Medicine to get treated. But my body needs alot of healing to do after this long year of struggles just to get my baby here safe and sound.

Love you ladies and I hope all of you here with babies are enjoying them to the fullest  because they grow very fast. And for all of you trying, it will happen very soon