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Mili is going to be 8 weeks on saturday... It's amazing how time just flies by, she is so big now she now coo's and ca's lol... Its adorable I talk to her and she responds. She is a little lady with alot of personality. She still keeps me up at night which by now im completely use to it. She will spend up to a couple hours after feeding just staring around until she finally decides its time to sleep lol... Every smile she gives me is the joy to my life. I now think that I cannot possible imagine what my life would be without her in my life, im sure that happens to everyone. She tries to hug me now and we love to cuddle with each other. Im so happy to finally have her here.

She is going to have her first halloween which is too cute... Dont know what she will be yet lol... Also her first Thanks Giving, her first Christmas Eve, her first Christmas and her first new year with us...

Life is pretty much the same my sisters fiance finally got discharged from the Army and will be coming home in a few weeks. Dad is doing great thank God. Mom is wonderful like always such a big help with Mili and my hubby in love with our daughter. Now we look forward to her saying mommy and daddy!!! and her crawling... We wish we could slow time down because she is growing before our eyes but thats life, we just have to enjoy every single moment with her. I hate the fact that I have to look for a job next month, I hate to be away from her but she will be okay my mom will be watching her, which is great it's hard to find a trustworthy person to leave your child with now a days.

Well I hope everyone is doing great and hope everyone has a great weekend !!!

Well I know I have not been on here too much, my life has completely changed for the better, but I have found myself very busy now that Mili is here. My whole life and schedule revolves around what she wants and when she wants lol... I hardly have time for me or to do house chores since she has been very fuzzy most of the day and all night. But she is adorable even when she is crying her little heart out and I have no clue what she needs. I have found myself crying with her a few times. Thank god my mother is around and the fact that we live with them has been very helpful since she helps me with her during the nights so that my husband can get some sleep. Everyone is in love with her but I have found to be somewhat of a little over protective so my husband says. My mother in law and sister in law have the tendency of being sick and want to come over to see her and hold her which I dont let and have warned my husband that I will not allow it. Im so scared that she can get the flu or even worst the swine flu. Anyways they have noticed that and are not to fond of me right now. I think that as her mother I have the  divine right to protect her against anyone and anything, thats what mother do right??? Well when she has come over she wants to tell me what to do or how to do it, its annoying, so I soke in what I need and the rest let it go in through one ear and come out the other.

I had my post partum appt, and everything has healed so she says but I did mention that intercourse is very painful I did have one stitch but she says it looks very healed. But the 2 times we have done it, it hurts so bad that im almost crying because it feels to tight in there. Has this happened to anyone after having a baby, or will it all heal and things will be back to normal. On another note I need to set a goal plan to loose all the baby weight and more from the past pregnancies. So thats probably gonna be my neew years resolution. Breast feeding is going great she is a pro and is so chunky... Her 2 month appt will ne on the 9th of November and she will get her vaccinations. Poor baby she is going to cry and I will probably cry too. Its an amazing feeling to hear her crying and no one can make her stop but as soon as she is in my arms she stops, she knows who her mommy is.. and I love that feeling

What else has been going on hmmm... Well my dad will be going for his last surgery to the piece of his cranium he is missing replaced. Im drained and stressed again. We thought that my sister was pregnant , well she took 2 pregnacies test and it kept saying positive so we thought she was. Then I took her to planned parenthood and again she was indeed pregnant. But then a few days later she woke up one morning and called me telling me she was bleeding. She was freaking out since last year she miscarried, her husband is in South Carolina in basic training for the army so she is living with us. She was devasted she thought she was having another miscarriage. So her mother in law took her in to the ER and to make the long story short they told her she was not pregnant not because she had miscarried but because she was never pregnant. They told her that the stress of knowing her husband was going to get deployed to Iran had caused her period to be delayed and the bleeding was her period. The stress had made her body raise the pregnancy hormone that made the test come back positive. They did more testing to verify that she was not pregnant they all came back negative. So that was something weird but true.

I have not forgotten all you ladies hear I will be catching up on journals on all my breaks that my baby gives me... she's the boss lol... Also  will be uploading some more pics of Mili so you can see how big she is now. She definetly does not look like she was ever a preemie. I love being a mom and have found many people asking us when we are having our next. Doctor said a couple years and I agree maybe more will see what lies ahead of us. I definetely want to give Mili a sibling or siblings but I know my body and I will have to go to the Maternal Fetal Medicine to get treated. But my body needs alot of healing to do after this long year of struggles just to get my baby here safe and sound.

Love you ladies and I hope all of you here with babies are enjoying them to the fullest  because they grow very fast. And for all of you trying, it will happen very soon

Boy oh boy does tiime fly by... It seems like just yesterday we were in the delivery room laboring and delivering my bundle of joy. She is one month old and now weighs 7lbs 14oz. She is alot of work baby girl sleeps all day only wakes up for feedings and diaper changes, and during the night is every hour and barely sleeps. But thank god we live with my parents and my mom has been a great help she sleeps in my room so my husband can get some sleep. She is very very cute, not because she is my daughter but she is adorable, thats probably what every parent thinks. Im sorry for not being on here so much but my free time I try to catch up on some sleep and chores. Alot of things have been going on other than everyone adjusting to a new baby in the house my sister just found out she is pregnant, she is five weeks along !!! Im so excited, but our parents are super excited they love being grandparents my dad is in love with Mili and he cannot wait for my sisters baby. She is due in June. Shbee is very happy but sad too her husband just joined the army and is currently in boot camp in South Carolina. She misses him tons and so far has not gave him the great news that he will be a dad soon. She wants to not worry him since this is not her  first pregnancy, her first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage at 9 weeks. We are praying with all our hearts that this pregnancy has no complications and I can have a healthy neice..

Have to leave duty calls my baby is hungry...