I'm a mother of 4. I suffer from night terrors, PTSD, Panic attacks, Anxiety and Battered Wife Syndrome. I've been with my husband since age 17, married 18 years, separated 4 times and still holding on. He's an alcoholic and suffers from anger disorder. He's also dyslexic. We both have depression and struggle together and individually everyday. Were blue-collared workers and are barely surviving. There's severe mental illness on both sides of the family. Major alcoholism on his side and I am scared to death of my children having anything that runs in our genes. We have no extended family and no one to support us or help us through this horrible world. That's why we cling so tightly to each other, but are usually tearing each other apart. We have now learned to let go. And things are definitely getting better. For both of us. I had to walk away from him so we wouldn't both drown and now we are finding ourselves again and our strengths are coming back and our love is growing maybe not for each other but within ourselves. We will always be a team even if we live separate lives now. The Depression is fading and the life in our souls is coming back we can even go to a movie together and have a good time even though were getting a divorce for sure we will always be family. Almost the only family we had for the last 20 years we share our four beautiful kids make arrangements to help each other and were getting along better than ever. You will always be my first love "Christian", and thank you for understanding I have to move on now for both of us to survive. Love Tammy
I'm a mother of 4. I suffer from night terrors, PTSD, Panic attacks, Anxiety and Battered Wife Syndrome. I've been with my husband since age 17, married 18 years, separated 4 times and still holding on. He's an alcoholic and suffers from anger disorder. He's also dyslexic. We both have depression and struggle together and individually everyday. Were blue-collared workers and are barely surviving. There's severe mental illness on both sides of the family. Major alcoholism on his side and I am scared
Anything to do with my kids, dancing & singing. And just plain old fashion loving and smooching with my new boyfriend.
Anything to do with my kids, dancing & singing. And just plain old fashion loving and smooching with
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HUGS TO YOU
Just dropping by to say i'm thinking of you....and hoping alls well?...Big hugs!
Thanks for the group hug, same to you with lots of love, x
Hey mommy #2 I will read your new journal for you and I hope things with you are going well here latley. I leave April the 2nd to go to a treatment center for 14 days ... So wish me luck I am really scared but I know I have to go in there thinking I can do this if I don't keep an open mind nothing will work. Thanks xoxoxo Kate
I am so sorry things are going so badly your way.. that really stinks. I don't understand it either why god does some things I will never know. Sure I've tried but there isn't an answer. Anyways I am sorry for you pain and I hope your mother is ok and that you get a job and things get better for you. You'll be in my prayers ... in the mean time keep your head up and keeping pushing forward you can do this. xoxoxoxo Kate
My depression is so severe sometimes I can't get out of bed.
My mother is a severe bi-polar and was in and out of mental hospitals my whole life. My dad is a paranoid skitzophrenic. Haven't had much contact with him since age 4 but talk to his family sometimes. Had the stress of bi-polar and the knowledge of mental illness in my life since day one. Never experienced life without it being there. Always bringing new problems and pain.
I've been married to an alcoholic for 18 years. I don't drink or do drugs and most of the time don't understand the cravings and addiction he fights on a daily basis. He's been on and off the wagon for 20yrs. His dad was an alcoholic for more than 45yrs. Right now I'm equipping our 4 children with the knowledge of alcoholism to try to brak the pattern of abuse.
I've suffered from tinnitus for over 12 yrs now I believe I got it as a side effect to the prescription medication I had to go on at that time. It was very hard to live with in the beginning it made me feel almost suicidal especially at night. Now I try to ignore it the best I can. The more stress in my day the louder it is.
I am in love with a man who was sexually molested by his mother. Then at age 15 was raped by a man of the church. He wants to try to be with me but most of the time can't. He goes to counseling and says he wants to try again with me when he's able to work his issues out a little more. So in one week he said he'll be ready to give it another try. Can someone come to terms with being raped & some how get it straightened out enough to have a normal relationship? Will this always get in the way?
I've had night terrors since age 5. Now I also have been diagnosed with Mild Sleep Apnea, some insomnia, REM disorder, Chronic nightmares, Slight Narcolepsy, and severe stress from broken sleep.
Ten years ago I was a major cutter to take away the pain from the inside and try to project it on the outside since the emotional pain was far too overwhelming to take another second
