angeleyes08's Journal

Well, I guess I dropped the ball on that one. I can't really keep an accurate journal if I'm not writing constantly! I suppose I've just been too busy to sit down and relate my tales, but I know I know... no excuses! I'm sorry!!!!!

Day... err... Entry Two: The Support Network Expands

I made a new friend. Her name is Carrie and I think we're going to do GREAT together. She's about my height, same weight, same fitness goals, same level of energy. She also has physical issues to deal with, so it's great to have someone like her to talk to. We don't live close, but we email and it's really helped knowing someone is in the EXACT same spot as me and we're helping each other out. 

I have another friend, Misty, but I don't get to hear from her much lately because her personal life is very hectic at the moment. She's another person who knows a lot of my issues, both weight-related and otherwise, and it helps to vent sometimes.

I have a friend who lives in France, who knows NOTHING about my "battle of the bulge", but it helps to have people to talk to nonetheless. I think if we can have friends, even if they don't know our inner struggles, that it helps us feel loved and accepted. So even the people who don't know I'm fat, or don't know I feel like a failure, or do know and it doesn't scare them... they all contribute to a happy heart.

I haven't done a TON of "active" weightloss things lately, more psychological. Like, I try to say "no" when I'm not hungry. And I try to eat smaller portions instead of ordering the big meal. Small things like that. I haven't heard back from the Weight Wise Clinic yet, but that's okay... I also haven't decided if I should take the pills. They're awfully expensive. 

Still single, still trying to stay happy with it. I usually am, it's just the evenings that get very lonely. I think I will go read for a bit after this. I like not sharing my bed! I like wearing what I want to around the house, "spare tires" and all, because it's comfy and not care what a boyfriend might think. I don't go out when I don't feel like it, I can dance around and my daughter doesn't judge me, and a ton of other fun things. Plus, I want to take bellydancing and pole dancing classes and no one will tell me it's for a man! I've had a hard enough time justifying my tongue piercing lol. Carrie recommended a book to me, but the library didn't have it so I must wait until they have it in so I can read it. Anyone else have recommendations, either reading or exercise (or diet), please tell me!

Oh, and I'll HAVE to tell you all about my hilarious cousin story!!! Another day, my friends. Another day.

*Afraid to step on the scale after my food intake the last few days...* Eeek.