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angeleyes08 
9:16pm, July 8, 2009
Okay, I'm sick of it! Positively sick of it! I've disappeared for months now, resurfacing every couple only to return an email, and then retreat to my own life... Well, I've failed! And that's all fine and dandy, but I'm sick of it.
I read a book recently that said something about life not being a one-person act, and I guess that's what I've been doing... assuming I can do this all myself. That I can deal with my weight, my parenting, child custody cases, finances, housework, and my depression all on my own. Obviously, I can't, but that's good! It means I can't stay stuck in the clouds anymore - the skies have cleared and now I realize I must enlist the help of every person on this planet to get me through. Then I can help them, and we're all better for it! It's a play... a well-working machine... no matter how you think of it, you can't live life alone. How can you reap the benefits of relationships and friends but then try and suffer your issues alone? So many do it - myself included - until now. I say we STOP trying to solely fight our demons! Let's surround them together and TAKE THEM DOWN! Even in movies, the Hero or Prince Charming couldn't have done it without his faithful sidekick or a good samaritan. Here's saying, I'll be YOUR faithful sidekick. I'll help you take down YOUR archnemesis, and I know I can count on you.
My demon is my weight. It's increased, yet again, and I can't bear to see it climb anymore. That scale has has its last laugh! I don't know where to start, I've forgotten all good advice, and it's square one for me.... getting rid of bad habits and being healthier. I want to tone up and look good, I want to be able to run around and not get out of breath right away, I want to FEEL great and LOOK great and be the wonderful person I was born to be.
Where do I start? What's the best way to begin my quest? Please... any advice is muchly appreciated!! I can't do this alone anymore, guys... I've only gained weight and am no better for it. I need to start again from the beginning, this time heavily relying on the friends and family that I refused to let help me for so long. I'll be there too, no worries! I know you can't do it for me, but I need your help! I need to lose weight, permanently!
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I think the first thing you should do is talk to a personal trainer. They might be able to put you on a diet plain and also help you excersie. Also do stuff with your child outside. This is the best weather to start this. Good luck. I am here if you ever need to talk or get some ideas
boston2
Thanks for the reply :) Personal trainers are so expensive though! Even more so than a gym, and I can't afford that either. I'll try to do more with my daughter... me and my friend (also overweight) have been trying to do sports-type-things lately, like badminton and volleyball. I hate the warm weather though... when it's too hot, I can't breathe, and the massive sweating doesn't help!
angeleyes08
Together we can win this dam war on fat.... I have lots of suggestions that when I have time I will email them to you that we can do together! Just remind me my memory sucks.. my anti depressants ahve that kind of effect!
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