Journal

I haven't been on here for awhile, but I have been doing well.  I have been exercising four times a week but still have not lost any weight.  Although I havent' gained any ether, so I guess that is good.  I am still reading my book although I have slowed down a bit. 

I am worried but not anxious so that is good.  I shouldn't worry at all but it is better then being anxious.  Finanically we are treading water but not sinking which is good but I am afraid that a day of reckoning will soon be here.  I need to see a dentist but they are expensive and we don't not have dental insurance, I also need new glasses, and the car needs work done on it.  So you see it could all go downhill quickly.  But I do not want to seem ungrateful because God is providing for all of our needs.  So I will leave it at that. 

I haven't been on here in awhile because I have been doing so good.  I am relately pain free and I have been mostly Anxiety free.  I pray that feeling continues.  I am no longer taking my anxiety medication, it was making me hungrey all of the time I gained all 20 pounds that I had lost back.  I am very bummed about that, I was happy to way 20 pounds less, but I am willing to way more in order to feel better. 

My goals are going well, I am over a quarter of the way through "A Team of Rivals".  Actually I am probably over a quarter.  And I have been doing good with my exercising as well most weeks I have been good and did 4 times.  I pray that it continues to be so. 

My family has been well.  Unfortunetly money has been a little tight here lately.  Medical bills have come in and I have been trying to pay them a little bit at a time, but it can make one feel overwhelmed.  On top of that we have all of our regular bills that need paying and we need to start saving for taxes for next year.  My husband and I are not good savers we are spenders, but I am really trying to be better about it. 

Well it is getting late, I hope all is going well with everyone!

     I am doing better, so I thought I would journal about that rather then only journaling when I am depressed and anxious.  I have been doing better here lately, thanks to a new medication the doctor has me on.  I have resisted medication for so long wanting to do it on my own, without any medical help.  The medication is symbyax, it helps with sleep and making me more settled.  I am thinking of getting off of it because I am hungery all of the time, and have gained 12 pounds also my husband and I have been trying to have a baby and pregnant women are not supposed to take it.  I am supposed to have a doctors appointment on wednesday and I am going to talk to him about a different medication.  I really do not want to regain all of the weight I lost after my last son was born. 

     I have an inkling I maybe pregnant this month some aches I have been having have made me wonder if I could be, the earliest I can test would be wednesday so I will keep you guys posted. I know I could be making a mountain out of a molehill and all the aches I have been feeling could be nothing.  Also on Thursday my sister and  I are going to a Quilting festival for 4 days it will be nice to get away, I have not been on a real good road trip in a long time and I am looking forward to it.  Apprently I was making a mountain out of a molehill I took a pregnancy test this morning it was negative, I am a little bummed but oh well there is always next month.  I also have nausea, I think I have some sort of virus, my husband had it first and got over in about a day I hope I do the same.  I don't want to be sick on my vacation. 

     So far I have been keeping up with my goals I set up last week.  I exercised 4 times this week and I have surpassed my goal for reading the book Team of Rivals and I am on chapter 4.  So I am feeling good about that.  Keep praying for me to continue, to meet and exceed my goals.  Thank you to all who are.