Journal Entry for July 28, 2009
July 28, 2009 6:50am
Slight positives...ive had two good days in a row.
Got my ED group again today. I really need to try and contribute more, its just …
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AdoreAva
6:53pm, October 24, 2009
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About Me
AdoreAva
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About Me
Im 20 years old and until about 1 month ago I was an English and History student. I have only recently gotten help for an eating disorder ive been struggling with for years, it has taken me about 5 years to admit there is a problem. Im taking time out of uni to try and sort my head out. Everyday is a struggle and im constantly having to convince myself that getting help was the right thing to do. Im terrified that i wont be strong enough to fight this.
Im 20 years old and until about 1 month ago I was an English and History student. I have only recently gotten help for an eating disorder ive been struggling with for years, it has taken me about 5 years to admit there is a problem. Im taking time out of uni to try and sort my head out. Everyday is a struggle and im constantly having to convince myself that getting help was the right thing to do. Im terrified that i wont be strong enough to fight this.
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Interests
Mostly music... Mark Knopfler, Dire Straits, Sons & Daughters, Fleetwood mac, the Breeders, Smashing Pumpkins, the Coral, Good Books, Deep Purple, Larrikin Love, Explosions in the Sky, Beirut, Pearl Jam, My Bloody Valentine, QOTSA, Pendulum, James Taylor, Fairport Convention, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Simon&Garfunkel, the Police, Ten Years After, Silversun Pickups, Paramore, Nick Cave, Jimmy Buffett, Metallica, Free, Eels, Foo Fighters, the Beatles, REM, Patsy Cline, David Bowie, Crash Test Dummies, Broken Records, UB40, Black Sabbath, Devo and thats enough for now.
Mostly music... Mark Knopfler, Dire Straits, Sons & Daughters, Fleetwood mac, the Breeders, Smashing
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Group Therapy...
July 20, 2009 3:36pm
I am having my second session of group therapy tomorrow. The first one was scary and surreal. Ive never been in a situation where people openly …
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One year older, no years wiser
July 9, 2009 8:29pm
I am 21 years old today
maybe this will be the year i become strong/brave/selfless enough to beat this
i …
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Journal Entry for June 29, 2009
June 29, 2009 4:19pm
I feel like i am going through life as a complete fake. To everyone i am normal and happy, inside i am a messed up excuse of a human being. If people …
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Hey Ava! Just wanted to say hi! I haven't been on here in forever and it looks like you haven't been on in awhile either! I've been so busy and just plain lazy all at the same time! But have been trying to keep things recent in the group lately! I hope that you are doing well and that you'll visit us again soon! Take care and best of luck to you! -Kylie
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From Shaner
May 16
Ava, you are a superhero that will conquer your fears and all that you need to in life, please believe that. We are all here to be all the friendship and support you could ever need. God Bless..........................................................you are strong enough, please believe that, that is the key to your freedom from this.
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From Shaner
May 16
I noticed that Ava. He is having some people over to his apartment tomorrow evening and into the early hours of the morning. It should be a blast. I am gonna see how many non alcoholic beers I can drink................lol.............. God Bless .
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Support Groups
Close Eating Disorders
: Bulimiai started making myself sick after food about 5 years ago but in the last year it has gotten out of control. i am binging and purging everyday, sometimes more than once. i want to stop more than anything! it is making me act depressed, argumentative, antisocial and negative, i know that is not who i am but i dont know how to change.
Treatments
- Prozac Working / Worked
- I started taking this about 5 weeks ago and so far it is really helping me cut down on my need to binge and purge.
- Psychotherapy Considering
- My doctor has put me on the waiting list for therapy, im hoping it will make a difference.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- About one month ago i told my mum and dad about my problem with bulimia, they have been really helpful but dont fully understand what it all means. For example, i had a couple of good weeks and they seemed to think that was me miraculously cured. Although it is nice to not be living the secret double life i had been for years.
Close Insomnia
For the past year i have found it really hard to sleep at night. i usually dont sleep till about 5am. some nights i managae a bit earlier but i never sleep more than 6 hours. i have practically tried everything to cure this. i just hate when people imply its my own fault, as if i purposefully dont sleep and could change if it wanted to! i really dont know what to do anymore.
Treatments
- Lunesta Working / Worked
- My doctor only gave me a weeks prescription for these. I was getting to sleep faster and longer but it was only a temporary solution. as soon as i stopped taking them the insomnia came back. i am unfortunately not allowed anymore as apparently they are addictive.
- Music Not Working
- i have made relaxing playlists and played them as i try to sleep. the music always finishes and i am still awake though.
- Reading Not Working
- I get too easily involved in books, even not very interesting ones. it has the opposite effect of shutting down my brain.
