poetryangel's Journal

hello friends sorry it has been over a week sinse i last journaled but things have been crazy around here again mostly w/me n my moods going from up to down, it does not help that i have a bill collector calling 10 times a day. he won't work w/me he wants all the money at once n it is 600.00;s i don't have i told him i would make payments but that is not good enough, i am just really not doing good,i go c my pdoc on monday n i am hoping he does not put me in the hosptial b/c i am just really cycling real bad rt now, the house is a mess, i have not had time or the engry when i do have time to clean it which is not like me at all, i just want to sleep or cry if not both,or i am at the total other end bouncing off the walls, i have been looking for work but no one is hiring rt now. i just don't know what to do.. i just want to scream but noone is hearing me, i hate myself rt now. really bad.

katie is doing good she made the dance team,kasey is doing better she has been sick the last 2 days, she has a job interview tomorrow i hope she gets it that will help alot not money wise but getting her out of the house for the day will give me a break from her. wayne is working as many hours as they will give him but he is not getting 40 hrs if it was not for my ssi we would b in forcloser on the house.praise God i have that. i just really wish this bill collector would leave me alone n let me make payments. i miss being on here all the time. i just don't  have the time like i use to i hope all of u r doing well. please keep sending me messages on how ya'll r doing. love u n God bless u always.