poetryangel's Journal

well i went & had the surg. on my face thrus. i DO NOT HAVE ANY MORE CANCER!!!! PRAISE GOD!!! I DO NOT HAVE TO HAVE CHEMO!! PRAISE GOD!!!

TY ALL OF U FOR UR PRAYERS, I KNOW THAT IS WHAT DID WAS GOD'S WORK.

I went to the denist yesteray & they r gonna start working on my teeth next friday so i soon will not b hurting there anymore. PRAISE GOD....

katie is had a good week, she is getting ready to go to the dance tonite. i am tired but doing so so the last couple of days have been crazy, my little brother was in jail yesterday & he kept calling me wanting to get him out, i told him he was gonna have to sit there, which broke my heart but i know i did the rt thing, then kasey promised me all week i could watch the baby last nite then called me to tell me no b/c her boyfriend don't like me so that hurt more than words can say, i have not spoke to her sinse then, then i got up today did my earns came home was feeling ok then my sister called to tell me that our step-brother the one who i hate b/c he is my mollester had stopped by her house, he had lost alot of weihgt due to his diablites & other illiness & wanted to make peace w/her, frankie & me, well she told him she don't want nothing to do w/him she was not sure about frankie but as far as i was concerned he better stay the hell out of my life b/c he had already messed me up enough, so for about the last few hrs i have been in a major panic mode, i took my clozapam but it does not feel like it is working, i am so freaked out, i don't know what i am gonna do if he finds me, i am scared to death of him, i just don't know what do, my husband is back home now so it is not as bad as it was, but i am still scared, if he lost over 300lbs when i only know what he looks like big then i am affraid he will b able to walk to me w/o me knowing who he is. i am just scared i hate this man. i know i am not suppose to hate but him i do & for good reason, i am praying God will work w/me to forgive him but even if i get to that point i will never forget.

well that is my venting for the day. i will check in again soon. ya'll have a nice weekend... ty again for all ur prayers.