I have some depression issues, debt problems, and a miscarriage, among other things. I'm just tired of being sad all the time. I took antidepressants for a while, but they had some horrible side effects (attempted suicide, cutting, etc). I was abused as a young child and it still affects me. For a while, I could turn to my running and working out as a release... but then I found out i had a heart murmur and bad asthma. I'm now six months pregnant with all kinds of problems. I've been on bedrest since 4 months because of a placental abruption, bad bleeding, daily recurring blackout spells and I keep losing weight. At first the father was supportive and nice and then one day, he just started being hateful to no end, telling me how he didn't care how I felt or what I thought and that he didn't have to be there for me. Come to find out he'd been seeing someone else behind my back and had lied to me about countless things. He just recently started saying that the baby wasn't his and that I'd somehow gotten pregnant on purpose. When I told him I didn't want to talk to him anymore he asked me why I hated him so much. I don't have a very supportive family and one sister of mine actually said she hoped the baby dies. Things are just very hard right now.
I have some depression issues, debt problems, and a miscarriage, among other things. I'm just tired of being sad all the time. I took antidepressants for a while, but they had some horrible side effects (attempted suicide, cutting, etc). I was abused as a young child and it still affects me. For a while, I could turn to my running and working out as a release... but then I found out i had a heart murmur and bad asthma. I'm now six months pregnant with all kinds of problems. I've been on bedrest since
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July 14, 2009 2:21pm
The baby's father, after being extremely hateful and basically telling me he didn't care about me or her at all, just called. I'd …
July 9, 2009 10:27pm
I'm so tired of people going out of their way to be hateful. They won't ever realize that the awful things they do and say have such an …
June 23, 2008 2:23pm
My friend Chris came over today and we did Tae Bo abs. I'm making myself go out and run later, after the heat dies down...maybe later this …
Talk to me Emmaria I still have a place for you in my heart.
Happy brithday hun, sorry things are so hard with you, whats making you feel like this?
I'm still here. Want to hear from you.
Emmaria you are still in my thoughts little girl. I am not going to forget about you.
hi,
read your profile and all you are dealing with. seems too much to ask of one person. I want to send my support and sympathy for all you are going thru and wish for healthier and happier days for you and your child in the near future.
feel better,
Tom
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My dad used to beat the hell out of me. I had two sisters, but he never touched them. My mom left him when I was 7, but then he stalked us and eventually broke into the house and tried to shoot her. He went to prison, but only for a year. He's out now and denies he ever did anything to me. He even tries to tell me that I made it all up in my head, and that my mom and my sisters all made it up too.
I'm pregnant and have horrible recurring blackout spells, a placental abruption, bad bleeding and a lot of pain.
I'm pregnant and have been having a lot of problems that have put me on bedrest until the baby is born. (NOV 4 2009).
