CloudDreamer's Journal

Diagnosis     <check>

Surgeries     <check>

Chemo         <check>

Radiation      <check>

I rang that bell of completion long and hard this past Thursday... Finished up Radiation... yeah!

I go see an OB/GYN this week for a "baseline evaluation" to see where my uterus stands w/ this mass in it that showed up on the CT scans.. yet they "dont think it is cancer".

That way I can get my script filled for Tamoxifin and get started on it. Not real thrilled to start it with the reading I've done on it.... but they say it's the next step... and so we will trudge forward.             After the appt for the baseline & starting the Tamoxifin I then go back in difft parts of July to see both of my oncologists (one at the beginning one at the end).

Figure let's start a med that is SUPPOSED to help get rid of the estrogen ... however.. you might notice weight gain and there have been reports of blood clots, uterine cancer, etc etc etc...

uhmmmm okay.. so they tell you to GET the weight off (if you're overweight) and KEEP it off to better your chances of it not coming back. Hmmmm okay.. lets start a pill that is proven to cause weight gain....              Smart thinking there!! Figure out what it is that causes the weight gain and get it outta the pill huh??? LOL    Reports show that diet and exercise are not factors that will help in this either... hmmmmm wow that must be some weight booster in the pill then if diet and exercise are not real influential in helping with it.

Then there's the uterine cancer issue... hmmm I already have a mass in my uterus that they don't know what it is...... okay lets put a pill in my body that can "help it along" so to speak...

I'm not complaining... really I'm not... I"m just listing what appears in my head as the "duh" factors here... and how they sit with me.. thinking okay .... you've made improvements and vast markers or success here... lets keep it up and do it w/o causing all of these other risks...

Cuz quite frankly... I"m thankful to be alive... thankful that stage 3 breast cancer isn't necessarily a death sentence anymore.. that it's beatable.... that's pretty awesome......cuz not that many years ago everyone woulda been picking out my casket & tombstone.

I ain't quitting now!! NO NO NO!!!!!! I'm trudging forward...   onward.. upward....

We are survivors in this awful disease....

I'll keep praying .... for all of us.... all of my sister warriors in this battle.. all of warriors everywhere having to fight a battle in every type of cancer that is out there. I"ve met some pretty terrific people along my path in this journey so far. Totally incredible!