Its been a year since my biopsy! WOW!
August 8, 2009 5:10pm
Its hard to believe! It's been a whole year. Yesterday would have been the marker of that day. I wore my "relay for life" tshirt all …
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3:12pm, June 6, 2009
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About Me
CloudDreamer
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About Me
mom of 4. homeschooling 1 of 4. others are graduated. married for 25 yrs, mostly rocky times. have lived in/outta depression for way too many years and now have breast cancer, which I am fighting with all that I am! I left the depression info "as is" to show how down I was w/ it. Then the cancer showed up and I've become very positve and for the most part really upbeat which is so not me. Higher power definitely in charge of all of this. He is my guiding source that pushes me forward as He looks down from above!
mom of 4. homeschooling 1 of 4. others are graduated. married for 25 yrs, mostly rocky times. have lived in/outta depression for way too many years and now have breast cancer, which I am fighting with all that I am! I left the depression info "as is" to show how down I was w/ it. Then the cancer showed up and I've become very positve and for the most part really upbeat which is so not me. Higher power definitely in charge of all of this. He is my guiding source that pushes me forward as He looks
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July 17, 2009 7:06pm
I really don't have a selected area of thought in this writing
other than the fact that I know I've not written anything for quite some time …
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Prayer
Hey Robin, Where have you been? I hope you are okay. Chris
Gold Star
Hi, there, Robin.
How often does a teacher get a gold star?
I recall that, in grade school, our teachers put stars on our foreheads if we did well at something that day. We also got them on our report cards.
Mi is Michigan, right? Is it cold there? Seems to me I saw that it is to be a colder than normal winter in that area.
I thought we might have a bad winter, since summer was not to be found here. Fine with me. Temps in the high 60s, low 70s were fine with a lot of us. There were some folks blame the cool summer for the tomato blight, though.
Well, you take care,
Bertha-
Ray of Sunshine
Hope you are still doing well and feeling good. Chris
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Time to celebrate!
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Close Depression
in and out of depression at varying levels for the past 30 years.
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- didn't work. even when doubled script. gained 20 lbs. that really helped the depression, NOT!
- Meditation Considering
- Would love to. but that'd involve 2 mins of "me" time a day that I'm not afforded.
- Paxil Not Working
- refused. dr. din't recommend due to increase in depression due to weight increase from lexapro. was offered to take paxil and gain 40 MORE pounds. I said no thank you!
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Not in my world. If I get a few "happy thoughts" a day I feel terribly blessed and they're short lived. They come from my daughter. She is my sunshine in a world full of storms.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- was told to leave my living situation. grab my daughter and get out. get out how? and where?
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- family situation increases depression. not an outlet for relieving it.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- helps to write it down. doesn't make it better, doesn't pave ways to sunshiny days. but at least clears a lil room in my head for more garbage.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Allergic reaction. Itching, hives, difficulty breathing
Close Breast Cancer
Stage: IIIB (Any N3)found lump. had mammogram, ultrasound, surgeon consult & had US core biopsy. IT IS CANCER. Had lumpectomy & lymph node surgery. NOW they say 3 cancer types & 11/25 nodes affected. time for mast. then scans,tests, chemo. Not sure on the staging til after scans. right now sitting at T2N3M? NOTHING in any scans/tests!
Treatments
- Adriamycin Too Soon to Tell
- 10/09/08-11/23/08. nausea, fatigue, hair loss, joint pain from Neulasta, etc.
- Chemotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Cytoxan Too Soon to Tell
- had with adriamycin.
- Mastectomy Working / Worked
- 9/10/08 had to go back in next day to relieve hematoma. healing was not as good as hoped w/ incision due to reopening. Pathology from Mast. was very good!
- Radiotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Radiation 3/19/09-4/30/09. burns, fatigue.
- Surgery Somewhat Helpful
- had core biopsy & lumpectomy surgeries w/ full axillary node removal (11/25 affected.) no clear margins from lumpectomy so had to go w/ the mast. medi. port put in 10/01/08 for chemo - removed 5/26/09. Worked but not well. Failed completely right after chemo was done.
- Taxotere Too Soon to Tell
- 12/11/08-2/19/09 hot flashes, fatigue, hand/finger/fine motor skills affected, toes affected(we'll see what else goes on!)
- Nolvadex Too Soon to Tell
- started 51909
Open Homeschooling
3rd year. love it
Open Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy
husband has RSD. 02/03. work related injury. RSD result. spread entire left side.
Treatments
- Atenolol Working / Worked
- 200mgdaily. never needed b.p. meds prior to pain from RSD
- Lisinopril/HCTZ Working / Worked
- second b.p. med
- Lyrica Not Working
- Methadone Working / Worked
- Morphine Working / Worked
- Neurontin Working / Worked
- 3600mg/daily. with many other meds.
- Norvasc Working / Worked
- third b.p. med used to try and control b.p. due to pain from RSD
- Oxycodone Not Working
- Pamelor Working / Worked
- helps with addtl meds listed. full regimine needed for any relief.
- Spinal Cord Stimulator Not Working
- pain docs thought it might help. workers comp refused. then it spread down his entire left side. pain docs said it wouldnt benefit anymore due to extent of disease and areas covered by it
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- helps with the pain and eases stressdepression somewhat all working in conjunction w other meds
