ScorpioBliss's Journal

Here we are almost through with January already ! Gee time flies when you're having fun

I'm feeling pretty good since they upped my Paxil. I seem to be sleeping a lot better, which in turn, makes me feel A LOT better. I've found with anxiety, sleep is very important.

Gosh, I've changed so much since first starting here at DS. The past year seems surreal. I was so overwhelmed when I came to DS. I've now found my way and will continue with my journey to a positive attitude and positive choices I've made to gain back respect for myself. My "inners" feel so much better. I hurt for so long, but have found that my heart is smiling, and it feels so good to say that.

Life is tough sometimes, but how we think about those tough times is where we'll find the key. There is no reason to over dramatize, over react, worry, hate, gossip, be unforgiving, feeing the need to control, or be judgmental. It only brings ME suffering. I still have much work to do in those areas, and probably will for the rest of my life. But I am CONSCIOUS of them now. I'm conscious of toxic thinking/living and what it can do to me. Not only physically, but mentally and emotionally.

I see things with new eyes now. I love my life and the people I have in it. I was born to succeed, not fail. And happiness will never come if we don't learn to appreciate what we already have within our reach. We don't have to go looking for it, it's all within us. Sometimes, change is needed to grab it from within, but it IS there. WAITING for us to take hold and FINALLY appreciate it.

Respect yourself enough to feel better. Respect yourself enough to be your best. Respect yourself enough to make the changes to regain your confidence,self esteem and happiness. Nobody and I mean NOBODY can make you happy, but YOU. There's no amount of excuses, procrastinating, or people that can make you happy. NONE ! To be true to yourself is the only way to fulfill that void. And that's exactly what I've done.