Things somewhat better, but I can't …
Things somewhat better, but I can't get rid of this constant feeling of just wanting to run away. I'm just drained & …
Join Now
Zanobia 
2:17am, May 11, 2009
Hiya Matey,
well I decided to write this in my journal as I would have taken up a whole page in your hug section lol...
I did get your text earlier today, and yes it did upset me a little, however I choose not for it to over-ride as at the end of the day it's in the Creator's hands..
I could have jumped up, and down, thrown pillows, or thrown a right tantrum, but that is not going to help matters, nor change this illness which has a firm grip within you..
not knowing what to do or how to help with the situation makes you feel vunerable to emotions you do not wish to show in front of the ones you love dearly, in this particular case I break the rules every time when I hear you getting worse lol..
sometimes it makes me wonder why on earth of all people does this have to strike on someone so close to me...I'm still trying to work on an answer to that, and when I do have an answer I'll let you know...
near on 19 years we have known each other and with so many changes that have happened it still feels as though the friendship is still brand new as though I had only met you yesterday...
now this has crept into your spine, well you kinda had that feeling months ago so no surprises it was just a matter of time before the confirmation made it more real...anything to do with your spine does not bear good news at all...
all i can do is still be there for you, make my quirky jokes, giving you the odd frighs as i'm good at that, plus all the cherries on top that binds us together as friends..
no matter what the future holds for you katey I will always stand beside you through and through...never give up hope as I know you won't, keep challenging the fears, and face them with stength, and most of all keep wiping the tears from your cheeks before you bung up your laptop girl :D
Last but not least I love you always, will ring when I come home around the 11th oct..
Mitch xoxoxl
Comments
You might also like ...
I have been feeling so anxious …
I have been feeling so anxious and nervous I feel like 20 nervous cats. Can't calm down. It's nuts. Nothing seems to …
I am feeling a million times better …
I am feeling a million times better and calmer than I did last night. Thanks to some of my friends here who responded …
i didnt want to upset you but more to keep you in the loop so to speak. i came home and had a good cry yesterday, just to get it out of my system. as you said i kinda already knew it was there, but so be it, the joys of this disease lol.
its not going to win matey i tell you that for free lol.
i will still keep going to church as i believe it is helping me like loads.
i have to remain positive so i am already thinking of what i can do when the time come where im on my arse more than up and about lol so i told hubby for my birthday he could get me either a mosaic kit (always wanted to try that lol) or a tiki cd lol
im still pill free and its (the back ) is not effecting me to badly at mo (only if i do to much like i did today lol things that you can do and not hurt lol all i did was dishes, hung out the washing and changed the lounge around with hubby and my bac is on fire that will teach me ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm not ).
i dont want you to be upset for me just be strong as i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo gona need that.
and you got the tears right too ya bitch ;-) you made me cry and i dont wana do that ;-)
you know i am from the fairy/pixie realm but did you know i am a DIVA yip you read that right :-) me a DIVA lol, i got told last week that i was a pixie and was sick of being so small (yip i can hear you laughing already) and i wanted to be a human and the powers that be have sent me everything (you know my life story lol) but i am determinded to stay here and be a huge healer, when my powers come into play, the will be mighty for my size i got told 3 times my size and i will blow people away with my powers. pretty wicked ahe :-) lol they could have made a little bit bigger lol
i am all good shell dont worry about me ok
much love and light to you and hey keep warm down there ahe snow tomorrow lol
always
kate lol
witchiepo
hiya matey,
you know me I try not to let too many things worry me, and now my plans have changed dramatically over the past last week...
I'm diffinately where I'm suppose to be at the moment where Nessy, and girls are concerned...throwing myself in the deep end as I usually do, so will have to wear scarf around my head alot more lol...
me being so receptive to others fields does not help, and you know me if anything goes wrong up your end I will feel it before you reach for the phone to text me :D
having the gifts that you do have katey will come into play when you become a lil stronger as if they came in all at once you will become overwhelmed and consumed by it all, so please take it slowly and quietly...
as for being a DIVA lol lol, yeah you may have come in a lil package but thats the best kind really LOL, just keep wearing your boots around Sacoya....
I've already made a couple of mates cry about me moving down here, but gota do what I gota do, already starting to have people coming to me however that was written there so just gotta go with the flow...I'm obviously ready for it with the tools that I hold for them coming...
Had a whaea coming to me before I left chch, and she is very skeptical, also it was her very first time...set room up and made her feel very comfrotable, she had also brought with her a mother figure, and an elderly male...needless to say she was blown away at how correct everything was in what I read and said...
I know within myself how I can help people, just a matter of timing and allowing them to come to me very slowly lol, that's where people including family are starting to feel a lil hesistant and not at all quite sure how to approach me as have been told I am very very gentle and it does tend to scare people LOL...
yeah like I'm this scary orger thats gonna rip you to pieces if you make a false move :D (yeah I know you laughing)...didn't realize how that's quite intimidating...
well looks like I will be coming back onto ds to keep in contact with you matey from now on otherwise phone bill gonna cost a small lil fortune lol...and just remember there's always the holidays where I can come up to my old haunts til a much later date, (give me approx 5-10 years) and no doubt I will find my way back to chch again lol...
have caught up with one of my old mates down here already and she is wrapped I'm moving back...she's been through some major ups, and downs, and her youngest Zoe (3) has grand mal epilesy with up to 5 seizures to the point where she doesn't stop, and has to give her meds up back entrance to try and stop them...she's also on meds every day for the rest of her life, as one could imagine Shells eyes are like a hawk 24/7...
sigh the things we have to endure lol
well bub, take care, be good, and if not be good at it :D
love you long time as always
Mitch xoxoxox
Zanobia