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brokenbutterfly75 
i am in my count down mode, im very anxious to get surgery over with and hopefully start feeling normal agian. my syptoms have gotten worse and new ones have shown up, i have more questions about my surgery than i do answers, im still not sure how they will cut me , how long it will take or anything... im really going in blind sided but then maybe thats good.. it is less for me to worry about right now.
im not nervous or scared over my surgery i know i have an awsome doctor and im at peace with all of it, i just cant wait to stop these headaches and hopefully the other syptoms as well. i had a new mri sunday but have no results yet.. i feel like i live at the doctors and hosptial. and i have started missing work so i am glad this is coming to an end.
the hardest part so far was explaining my medical directive choices to my family and having them witness those choices. noone wants to imagine that something could go wrong but i decided i wouldnt go into surgery with out this being done.... i have my husband my kids and my folks to think about and i have to keep them in my best intrest, and what a tough choice.... people come out of situations everyday.. so at 34 i have to decide if i would want to be kept alive by life support.... is a 5% chance worth it... to my family it would be to my boys it would be but that 5% chance dragging on for year after year would be worse on them than letting me go to heaven, it would destroy them to see mw like that for days.. months and then years and they wouldnt be able to move past it and heal.. and i cant let that happen to them. i guess it seems a little selfish to not give them an opinion, but thats a time that you would have to let your mind over rule your heart and i cant imagine how hard that choice would be and the guilt that may come with it. and if something should ever happen i want my family and husband to be at peace with it and to move on, but hopefully it will never be a choice that needs to be made.
im going to close now, i wish you all a great day , and blessings of peace , love and healing.
opal
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Best of luck with your surgery. I am just now getting ready to go that route. I have ask many questions on here but know one really has talked to me much on here. Guess I don't ask the right questions. I understand your feelings and making the choices you have so nobody else has too in the event something may happen. You will be just fine and I will say a prayer for you. Best of luck to you.
Becky76
nice to hear from you, when i first joined i got little responses to my questions to, so i didnt get on much and i get on now some to journal so i can vent some of my worries and concerns and not let it all build up, im glad to answer anything i can.... there is so many more questions then answers for me in dealing with all of this. and many of the docs dont want to do anything , they just dont understand the affect it has on everyday life.
brokenbutterfly75
Hiya
I hope you're surgery goes well. And yup I also was quit worried before the surgery. And had a lot of questions. But I am so glad that I had mine..
The pain is away...oke I am still not able to walk withot crutches but that will also come soon.
I wish ya all the luck and I will take ya with me in my prayers...
Big hugs from me to you
inapatti
patti im glad to hear you are doing better. have they gave you any time frame on your recovery? or about it coming back? i think that will be my biggest concern, i fear it all returning and going thru it agian.
thank you for the thoughts and prayers, i truly feel like that is what will get us thru , knowing others understand and have us in their thoughts and prayer, that we ar enot alone even though it often feels like we are.
brokenbutterfly75
Well they told me that when everything is going well I would be able to walk in september...and yeah it can come back...
But till so far I am glad that I had surgery even it took a lot of me.
(and of my family)...
Well you can count the days now...(07-17) right?
I hope that your surgery and recovery is going well...and that you also can say the same after a while...."that it all was worth it"
(excuses for my bad englih)...
Lots of hugs
Ina
inapatti