Just getting started
July 26, 2008 11:40am
Ok, now I have these four weeks ahead of me with no kids and no husband, it's strangely quiet. So far to be honest I just don't miss them. I …
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mamalulu 
5:03am, August 17, 2009
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About Me
mamalulu
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About Me
37 W/3 kids, B16, Gr2, Gr8, and husband.D/X just 6 yrs ago, but just weeks ago the D/x was up dated BI-POLAR 2 W/ RAPID CYCLING (not fun)I'm still learning. I'm CREATIVE, ODD, and LONELY. I keep people away because of the B/P. Life was very hard growing up, now I have this B/P, that's enough. But aside from the B/P my life is pretty good.
37 W/3 kids, B16, Gr2, Gr8, and husband.D/X just 6 yrs ago, but just weeks ago the D/x was up dated BI-POLAR 2 W/ RAPID CYCLING (not fun)I'm still learning. I'm CREATIVE, ODD, and LONELY. I keep people away because of the B/P. Life was very hard growing up, now I have this B/P, that's enough. But aside from the B/P my life is pretty good.
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I am creative, I would love to try it all if I could. I listen to a lot of different Music. I read a lot. I HATE the TV, it sucks me in and tries to kill me, I like movies though, especially if they make me laugh. I really like people who are real, no bullshit, I see so much superficial stuff, and people who think they are better then others- and it keeps me to myself- I don't have time for it-or them. I have strong opinions, but I don't expect people to believe what I believe, I just enjoy being with people who think about the bigger picture---and for them selves! And if you would be willing to walk down the high street single file singing "HI/HO/HI/HO It's off to work we go", if the situation calls for it, that would be cool too! It could be necessary!
I am creative, I would love to try it all if I could. I listen to a lot of different Music. I read a
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July & moving along
July 7, 2008 6:53pm
I am still really worried about the upcoming trip. I think that there will be to many triggers and not enough space (I NEED SPACE). I am worried that …
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JULY % a bit improved
July 4, 2008 4:39pm
I have talked about taking some days and going to a health farm, just to take care of myself. I need to do this to manage the upcoming trip. But I …
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Thurday July £rd Need advise please
July 3, 2008 11:20am
I had a counselling appointment today- it was cancelled. I don't know what to do. I saw her on friday with the B/P doc and both asked me to …
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I haven't been around much, but wanted to send a little love your way and hoping you have a good day. I had a long bout of depression that I went through and since getting better have been busy as co-admin on a bipolar website. If interested, you can check it out at www.bipolar4lifesupport.net. Big hugs!!
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you and i are both in london it would be great to chat.
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Hi jade thank you i'm feeling very lost.
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My weekend was horrible, I used my back pay money to buy a 2000 Cadillac Eldorado and could only afford liability insurance and Friday evening, I blacked out and climbed a tree. I think it is totalled and I don't really have the money to replace it.
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Close Bipolar Disorder
As a young adult I thought everyone was just as strange as I was inside there heads. It never occured to me that I could move past it. With each child I had the symtoms became harder for me to cope with, untill my third child was born. With her I had severe post pardom depression, but once that lifted it I was rapid cycling. The doctor I was seeing told me I definately wasn't bipolar, but everything I read said otherwise, this went on for months, when I suddenly went (Once Again) from a high to an extreme low. It was so bad I called my husband and Told him he had to come home....and then later I snuck out the back door and walked 3 miles to the nearest hospital. From there I called my husband to let him know was ok, but that was all. I sat in the emergency waiting for 40 min before I decided to tell them I was there. It was the best descion I ever made. I was given a good doctor and suitable treatment started. My husband arrive at the hospital just as I was getting admitted, he told me it wasn't until he saw me there that he realized it was where I needed to be. And so it began....
Treatments
- Effexor Working / Worked
- This was the drug that made the first big improvement Ive been up and down on dosages but Im scared to go off
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- This is new for me and Ive just reached the 400 point but SAD is an issue for me as well and this does seem to improve things
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- What I have worked on the most is to keep my thought real so realizing that when the depression tells me Im fat ugly stupid I can tell myself that is the depression talking. I still feel crappy but it does help. For istance with every depression I suspect my husband of having an affair and deside we should be togeather anymore...everytime...now we laugh about it. I know its not whats real
- Topamax Working / Worked
- This is another of the drugs that helped me at the very beginning my doctor doesnt think it is doing anything for me but I am too scared to go off of it. But raising it which is what I should do stupifies me. Not very nice when you cant remember the names of your very own children amoung other important imformation!
Close Parenting Teenagers (12-18)
I have three children-B16, G12 and G8 and a cat. I thought the age differences were brillent untill recently, I am now going through the teens and will be for the next 10 years without break!
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- Patience Considering
Open Seasonal Affective Disorder
I have s.a.d and B/P and live in London which is just crazy. I am very sentitive to changes in the weather.
Open Healthy Relationships
I married at twenty, and have had three children B16,G12,G8. I am now 37. I have been married 17 years, most of it really good. We contect well on the kids and family life, after that I feel like he treats me like one off the kids or a sexual play partner- but nothing inbetween. To be fair to him I should add that I am Bipolar and that gives him alot of extra responsiablities when I'm ill.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Working / Worked
- Helped DH look clearly at his life and my BP and work at something better.
- Patience Working / Worked
- I'm running out of patience.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Works best naked in the bathtub, your both vunerable and can't get away quickly.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I mean letter writting to each other. It gives him time to think before he replies.
Open Sexual Abuse
I have done years of thearapy in the past, but fresh memories have begun creeping up and and I guess I need some more help now.
Treatments
- Art Not Working
- Music Working / Worked
- Helped
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Working / Worked
- Good book
