bilow72's Journal

 I did talk to the staff at unity house about the attack. i told them what happend and i didnt want to be around him at all. things have changed. he was making the thursday dinner for unity house last week i came in and asked him if he wanted help he said yes because he knew i could do the job better than anyone else. it went real good. we are talking and hanging out. hes never apolized out right but i can see from his actions hes sorry. i will always have that incident in the back of my mind.

i was dating a younger guy for just over two weeks but broke it off for good today. he was 10 yrs younger than i. he was very immature and it was almost like i was his mother. i had to tell him to shower, clean up his mess ect. i finally had enough and told him ive had enough i had to turn on what i call the mommy mode to him a few days ago. apparently it didnt work. i told him if i wanted another child id have one that i carry for 9 months not a immature 27 yrs old. 

ive reconnected an ex from about 14 yrs ago but hes not the reason why i ended it with the  27 yr old. i realized today when he tried to give me a hug today i pulled away and was grossed out he hardly ever bathed. i shower twice a day and use deorant ect he never did. after he left i felt empowered and felt good for the first time since i was with him.

as for the ex ive reconnected with im going to see him within 2 months. we are talkng every day online and have exchanged numbers. we are going to see if we are going to give it another chance. he lives 3 provinces away and hes going to help me with the expense of going out to to see him and the other expenses that go with the trip. im curious where it goes if anywhere i guess we'll see where it goes. hes also 7 yrs older than i. i gave dating a younger guy a chance im think im going to stick to at least one older one