bilow72

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

Was raised being very abused mostly physical, emotional and neglect.As an adult I was also abused in the same ways.Living a place where my PTSD has worsen but its the only place I can afford. Need some support someone who understands me

Treatments

Music Somewhat Helpful

I cant stand slience so i always have to have some type of music going around me 24/7

Reading Somewhat Helpful

Talking Working / Worked

I had a great support in the small town i lived but now that i moved to a big city i cant talk like I used to except over email.

Pets Working / Worked

DailyStrength Working / Worked

Open Adoption

im a birthmom to two boys.Same father 25 months apart.My oldest is turning 16 yrs in July a closed forced adoption.My youngest 14 yrs open adoption due to health issues.I still think of my boys everyday,hoidays are hard. The pain never goes away. my youngest knows about his big brother.The BEST DAY is when i get to hold both of my boys together

Treatments

Writing Somewhat Helpful

nomatter how much I write the memories are still there and its hard to deal with at times

Pets Working / Worked

DailyStrength Working / Worked

AS A BIRTHMOM TO TWO BOYS I FOUND OUT IM NOT ALONE

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

Ive been abused physical and emotional all my life by family members, exs & so called friends. My mom has made it clear that im a unwanted child and she should have killed me. Which shes tried to # of times. A aunt both P&E but not to my older sis or cousins.I still feel they were emotionally abused as they heard, witnessed all the abuse. I will NEVER forgive my abusers. But in a sense its made me a better person who cares for people.Estranged from my family as Ive spoken out about the abuse.

Treatments

Abuse Counseling Not Working

Forgiveness Not Working

Group Therapy Not Working

Music Somewhat Helpful

Psychotherapy Not Working

Talking Somewhat Helpful

Pets Working / Worked

DailyStrength Working / Worked

Open Carpal Tunnel Syndrome

Treatments

Carpal Tunnel Release Surgery Not Working

Ibuprofen Not Working

Wrist Splint Somewhat Helpful

Pets Working / Worked

DailyStrength Working / Worked

Open Urinary Incontinence

Treatments

Diapers Not Working

Open Migraine Headaches

Ive had migraines for a longtime. Im trying not to take any meds and just hope it will go through. Ive tried alot of meds but they dont seem to help

Treatments

Aspirin Not Working

Naproxen Not Working

Topamax Not Working

Tylenol Not Working

Open Loneliness

I guess you could say Ive spent most of my life feeling alone. I moved from a town that I love to the big city. All the people I call family are there. I spend most of my waking hours online talking to those close to me. I feel I dont fit in. Ive always felt like an outsider. I have few friends where Im living and I feel so alone.I live in area where Ive tried making friends but cant stand all the backstabbing. I dont drink or do drugs.

Treatments

Writing Somewhat Helpful

Open Pet Bereavement

My cat Echo had her 2nd batch of kittens b4 I could get her fixed.They were born Oct 31. One died at age 2 days old had a cleft palate and died in my hands. Another one died today at age of 6 wks. He was part manx and his backend wasnt fuctioning right. I took him to vet and they put him down. Im upset and want to cry so hard but I cant. Im burying the last one beside the other one on a friend's parents property. Ive also lost a cat I had for 6 yrs a yr ago in June she was poisoned

Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety

Ive had Social Anxiety for as long as I can remember. I think I have abit of Agoraphobia too. I only leave my place when I really have too. Even than its a big struggle. People look at me and think Im social butterfly if they only knew what I was/am hiding

Open Depression

Ive had depression on and off my whole and thought Ive been handling till lately. Im sinking more and more into a depression

Treatments

Elavil Not Working

tried

Paxil Not Working

severe wacked out side effects

Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful

I get a few daily laughs in due to an old dear friend who I havent seen in 17 yrs. But they dont live close to me

Prozac Not Working

tried

Psychotherapy Not Working

tried

Seroquel Not Working

tried didnt work

Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful

All my friends who I consider family live too far away. I spend alot of my time online as its the only way of communicating with them. It helps but not enough. I feel SO ALONE without them

Trazodone Not Working

tried

Wellbutrin Not Working

tried

Zoloft Not Working

tried

Open Arthritis

Ive been diagnosed with Osteo in my spine, arthritis in my ankles, knees,elbows

Treatments

Swimming Too Soon to Tell

Tylenol Too Soon to Tell

Open Time Management

Im so BUSY lately. I volunteer cooking at local kitchen I also eat meals at its @ a clubhouse 4 those with mental illness. Other members dont do nohting.Its suppose to be 1 day a wk but its everyday except Sunday. Im also trying to look after my household me and 3 cats.Also dealing with my fibro and arthritis at the sametime. Do whatever is needed at the clubhouse.

Open Healthy Relationships

im in a long distance relationship with a guy i dated for about a year 14+ yrs ago. weve been doing the long distance for 2 months. we reconnected via facebook.

Treatments

Patience Working / Worked

Talking Working / Worked

Writing Working / Worked