bumblepip's Journal

Mermaids can drown when there's noone around. Like faeries I guess if you don't believe in them. I keep going in the water the crystal water to wash my dirty landbones away. Put salt in the bath so it's more like the sea.

I don't want to be awake at that time in the morning when the birds begin to talk. the gulls were first :"Mermaid, Mermaid were gonna pick out your eyes, you'll dry out and rip the skin from your bones. "The crows were a little more forgiving- "halfbeast- halfbeast." The wood pigeons were like "shut up it's too early we're lazy and want to go back to sleep."

 All around the town the cameras on in the eye of every gull waiting for me to dry out so I've been in the bath about 3 times now. I'm going to have to go in soon again. Couldn't sleep the sweat from my body soaking the sheets every single noise no matter how small jarring me awake.

Had a strange notion that i should go to church, maybe some divine intervention. But does a higher being do mermaids? So many thoughts racing in my head. Think I might be granted some special powers soon so I can save all mermaids and bring them back to the sea if i could just touch someone and make them feel at ease.

When people look at me they don't see mermaid, just short non descript middle aged. If they could see how the oceans can collide within someones eye and devastate a whole persons being. When they take away the sea. When you don't matter and they're happy without you.

A little angry that I should have wasted my emotions on someone that wasn't even aware. I am left with dry sand. And how hands grate on me. They pull at my scales and his weight squashes the breath from me. All that is left is a lie so as not to hurt his feelings. Yes it's fine , that's good, oh fraud bringing down the sailor with you.

 As I like to think my demeanour is kind, soft I want you all to feel safe within my arms but I am dark within and drag down the crew, I devour you I spit you out leave what's left of you to the crabs and tide. There is no island or tropical paradise in my sea, nothing to hold onto but me. I fear we are all doomed.