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June 24, 2009 12:17am
I have no place to start...my life feels like I have been dragged behind a ship that can not hear me when I ask for help, because …
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rainytearjoy
3:38am, June 24, 2009
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About Me
rainytearjoy
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About Me
I really enjoy life...I am 50, married when I was 18, had my first child just days after my 19th birthday....I had 4 children one passed before deliver...I have 8 grandchildren 2 have passed away. My mom and dad are both still alive, and I have one sister and two brothers..Sister 5yrs older brother one yr older and youngest brother by 5 yrs..My dad was told after we lost the babies that there was nothing else they could do to help him, so at anytime he could die...(that is true for us all) and my two brothers are sick as well...I could write a book about all of that...LOL
I really enjoy life...I am 50, married when I was 18, had my first child just days after my 19th birthday....I had 4 children one passed before deliver...I have 8 grandchildren 2 have passed away. My mom and dad are both still alive, and I have one sister and two brothers..Sister 5yrs older brother one yr older and youngest brother by 5 yrs..My dad was told after we lost the babies that there was nothing else they could do to help him, so at anytime he could die...(that is true for us all) and my
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Interests
I write poems, books, songs, and I enjoy walking, climbing rocks, reading books, music, dancing, going places..and some films...I like to watch people, I really enjoy my friends..and their families....I have a blast on ships and I like roller coaster...go to one theme park after another to ride the different roller coasters...Hey life is full of UPS and Downs that's why I like to ride something that takes away my stomach but not my heart... lol I enjoy swimming and I love God... I find he is the reason for my interests. I just wish I enjoyed flying..LOL
I write poems, books, songs, and I enjoy walking, climbing rocks, reading books, music, dancing, going
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Who would have thought it...?
September 30, 2008 5:51pm
Things happen in life that makes you wonder, things that you never thought that it could happen to you or someone you …
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Flower of Life
July 29, 2008 3:42pm
Life is like a flower....It lays so quiet, under the blanket of earth; while the rays of the sun beckons it to come forth......it's so hard …
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Being happy
July 27, 2008 5:07pm
How ? I ask myself sometimes, do you make yourself happy? Laugh when you want to cry...sing when you rather scream....get out of …
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OK
July 27, 2008 4:55pm
To live life, not just breathe....sat through it, wait for something to happen, but to live......so I have done pretty good.....I have company that …
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Hugbook
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I've been away but back how r ya?
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Hi Doll!! I've been gone for a long time.Back more likely on facebook. Remolding our kitchen my brother passed in march awful of course.love u much!!marge
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Rainy - Thinking of you often. I know you are busy but R U OK? I'm concerned for you! Hope to hear from you soon.xxx
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Prayer
Precious one. Beloved daughter of Adonai,The Lord God Almighty. Continue to cast your cares upon Him for He careth for you.
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Rainbow
Hi again - had a hectic few days. Amazing things happen when we press into the purposes of God. Take care until we "meet" again.
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Support Groups
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ChildLevi and Ashlyn was just 6 days from being a yr apart..they died a horrible agonizing death from a disease that causes the body to shut down. I called the cemetery to reserve a place beside her bother while she was just 4mons old. Levi born 5/29/03 died 6/9/04 Ashlyn 5/23/04 died 12/24/04 That's it my story. Quik just like you wanted.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- I could not fall apart because my daughter and her husband were beside themselves...I stayed with them till Aug. and I went home..I hurt..crying doesnt heal the hurt...
- Getting Angry Not Working
- I don't understand this one, I have screamed..I get in the car and I go down the road and I scream till I laugh.. it just makes me realize how silly I must look..but it doesn't heal the gap that is left in your heart...you see you feel like your heart is in thousands and thousands of piecess...you hurt
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- My mind, had to stay on just what I was doing..but you have to rest eventual...lol
- Pets Not Working
- Poetry Somewhat Helpful
- I read some of the stuff that I wrote while Levi and Ashlynn was sick and then some of the stuff after they died...It let me see that there is a bit of a healing that is going on.. some hope
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- Again, your mind has to focus on what the words say..and you can't let your thoughts wonder off.
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- I don't like to look at pictures..They look like they were normal, not sick...who would have known that on the inside their bodies were shutting down..Jezzzz hhememenjflksjds
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
- That's what I came in here to see. Does it work?
- Time Too Soon to Tell
- I know it will, I look forward to that..but now there is Mothers day and birthdays and growing children all around the world..and your mind say's "Wow" "I am so glad for these ppl, I wonder how..They would have looked." sucks..LOL
Close Diets & Weight Maintenance
My weight goes up and down. I feel happy when I am away, I loss weight and I feel good..When I don't feel happy I gain weight lose energy and just don't seem to be able to do anything.
Treatments
- Atkins Diet Working / Worked
- That did help, yet you still have to eat a certain way.
- Curves Not Working
- You have to drive to get there, you need to work out more than just once a week
- Eating Healthier Foods Not Working
- I think it would work if everyone would eat the same foods, but that does not happen here.
- Eat Less Considering
- I have a bad thyroid, eating a little food doesn't seem to really help..but I shall see.
- Weight Watchers Too Soon to Tell
- I just went last week, I shall see.
- Humex Working / Worked
- I feel if I can lose weight on my own I shall be able to keep it off....
