DefyingGravity's Journal

94 more days? Where did this year go? And what happened to the girl who started this year? I feel like a different person. Older, and maybe even a little wiser. 

I started the year of dating for selfish purposes. I was stuck between guys and I wanted there to be a reason for the singleness I had found myself in. So I decided to take a year off dating. A year to celebrate singleness and the uncomplicated-ness of it. But during this year, I have found myself. My calling, my passion, my heart. I have found a reason for this life and for what has happened in this life. I have faced sucesses and I have faced failures. I have had people I love die. I have lost friends. I have looked darkness in the eye and laughed. I have walked through the valley of the shadow of death, and because of His glorious love, I fear no evil. I know that He is there, and that He is my one true beloved. One day, in my dance with God, he will let the right man cut in. But for now, God and I are going to dance tangos together. Tied up in his glorious love and plan for my life. Hallelujah!

So, what started as a simple year of dating has evolved into a glorious relationship with my Lord. So now, instead of "taking a year off dating" I am taking a year to get closer to God and to gain new insights into myself. And after this goal, I just might start another one. Not to hide behind, but to celebrate in.