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rickeyandkevinsmomma 
1:05pm, November 11, 2009
What a day, what a day. I was in pain all day long, trying to clean my house and watch 2 kids and battle my bladder spasms all at once. My house is still a wreck, my kids are in the bed, and I am still feeling like I'm going to pee on myself. I don't know when this will ever end? How did I get so sick at such a young age? I don't understand it. I'm grateful to be alive, don't get me wrong, I thank the Lord for every day I get with my beautiful children. But I just wish I could be normal for awhile. No stones, no lung problems, no high blood pressure, no UTI's, it's something right after the other... on and on again. I'm just frustrated with life. My husband and I have our ups and downs, and right now we're having a down. Last week it was an up. We are stressed because I can't work obviously, and we only have one car. I have to get to doctor's appointments, take my kids to their appointments (Rickey's speech and behavioral appointments and Kevin's one year check up). Tomorrow I am getting re-checked at MCG to make sure the stent is still in place. Thursday is Rickey's speech appointment and then I have to go to an ENT surgeon to look at my throat to see if I'll ever get my voice back, and if one of my vocal chords was damaged in the sarcoidosis biopsy. I just keep saying I'm too young for all of this! Where did my life go! But then I think about people who don't get to even my age... who don't grow old... who don't get to have their babies like I have mine... and I thank the Lord. God is good, all the time. Even if we disagree for awhile. It all falls into place.
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Oh honey, we all seem to take our health for granted until we have problems with it. Hopefully, you will manage your problems and be able to get on with your life. ((hugs))marcia
bizemomm
Hi, I am sorry you are having a hard time. I will be praying for you. It makes hard facing all that. I can relate. If you ever need to email me please feel free to.
I am here for you. Hugs and prayers, Polly
snodove
oh chick i'm sorry you feeling so harrassed with everything,take care,much love xoxoox
emotionallystunted
Thank you all :)
rickeyandkevinsmomma