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June 17, 2008 12:23am
I Just Wanna Stop Hurting...
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Goal End Date is Sep 17, 08 440 days ago.
abbiej 
9:35pm, July 6, 2008
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About Me
abbiej
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About Me
I'm just your everyday run-of-the-mill veritable cornucopia of mental unhelth. I have been struggling with depression my whole life, recently it's gone to full blown bipolar. I am also OCD, and severely co-dependent. Top this all off with a grueling battle with meth addiction, that keeps me on the fence most days. I don't suppose this is what I was supposed to put here, you know should of been "single mother of 7 year old boy, who is currently unemployed while I navigate my way thru this often laughable, usually regrettable journey called life, trying to figure out if the juice is worth the squeeze." (All true, by the way... My son is currently living with my parents for a bit, while I figure out which way is up.)
I'm just your everyday run-of-the-mill veritable cornucopia of mental unhelth. I have been struggling with depression my whole life, recently it's gone to full blown bipolar. I am also OCD, and severely co-dependent. Top this all off with a grueling battle with meth addiction, that keeps me on the fence most days. I don't suppose this is what I was supposed to put here, you know should of been "single mother of 7 year old boy, who is currently unemployed while I navigate my way thru this often laughable,
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Interests
Singing. Love it. Was too old for American Idol, though... I also love NASCAR, actually, anything with a motor!
Singing. Love it. Was too old for American Idol, though... I also love NASCAR, actually, anything with
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SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZE! AND MORE HUGS BACK TO YOU. BLESSINGS SHERI K
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I can Relate, May God help us on Our Journey Of Thorns and Roses. Hugs, Sheri Kariaba and welcome to Cross Addiction Group. If you read my Journal you will see how much we are alike.
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From Shaner
June 17, 2008
I take it that you are pretty new to this site: Welcome, welcome, and welcome! God Bless you!
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From Shaner
June 17, 2008
Here's a high five for the days that you have been sober. The journey of 1000 miles starts with one step! God Bless
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From Shaner
June 17, 2008
Nice to meet you, thanks so much for the friend request, more than happy to accept. God Bless you and all the power to you in taking your life back from the darkness of the drugs! God Bless you
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
Started out as depression 10+ years ago. Started using Meth 2 years ago, and now it's Bipolar. Can't even work now, when I hurt too bad, I wanna relapse...
Treatments
- Depakote Working / Worked
- Great for mood stabilization, when I remember to take it!
- Geodon Not Working
- Was horribly allergic! Ended up in the hospital, almost died...
- Risperdal Working / Worked
- Great for quieting my mind down at night, I also have OCD.
- Tegretol Working / Worked
- Worked OK, but not as well as others.
Close Meth Addiction & Recovery
Devil's Drug. Ruined my life. Lost my son, my job, my home, my self-respect.
Treatments
- Detox Working / Worked
- Good for the first few days clean.
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- Like having others who understand me.
Open Adoption
What's there to tell. I was adopted when I was a day old. My biological father delivered me because the doctors were on strike. Before I got married, I tried to find my biological mother, but the building that housed the records had burned down 2 weeks before. Took it as a sign from God. Now I wish I could find her to maybe get some history on my emotional and mental health. For my son, especially.
Open Alcoholism
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- Good support.
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- Support, again. And something to keep me busy.
Open Codependency
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- Celebrate Recovery Working / Worked
- CoDA Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- Pets Working / Worked
- My dog has SAVED MY LIFE!!!
- Reading Working / Worked
Open Depression
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Geodon Not Working
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- Writing Working / Worked
- Zoloft Working / Worked
Open Family Issues
Well... To put it simply, my family puts the fun in dysfunctional.
Treatments
- Family Therapy Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Financial Challenges
Single mother who gets no child support. Need I say more?
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Risperdal Working / Worked
Open Parenting Big Kids (5-8)
Single mom to a 7 year old boy, trying to deal with parenting on top of everything else.
Treatments
- Education (School) Working / Worked
- Listening Working / Worked
- Kids love to be heard and respected. I should do it more often...
- Patience Working / Worked
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
Every kind of abuse there is, I have endured. At 6 I was molested by my cousin, and again at 8 by a babysitter. Then again, on my 21st birthday by 2 guys I thought were friends. Then my second husband liked to drink and beat the shit out of me, and beat me down emotionally so bad, that I even quit wearing make up when he said.
Treatments
- Divorce Working / Worked
- Best birthday present I ever gave myself!
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- You only harm yourself by holding onto resentments. Forgiving isn't forgetting, just accepting.
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Leave Working / Worked
- The only thing that gave me the courage, was not wanting to let my son grown up thinking it was an OK way to treat women. Otherwise... I would be dead by now.
- Music Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Personality Disorders
Borderline... Yeah. I got that, too...
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Psoriasis
Affected Areas: Psoriasis of the SkinAt least this is the only PHYSICAL problem I have! Can keep the rest hidden if I have to. Ha. Ha.
Treatments
- Betamethasone (Topical) Working / Worked
- Everything quits working after about a month or two. Build up a resistance, I guess.
- Coal Tar Working / Worked
- Hydrocortisone Working / Worked
- Methotrexate Working / Worked
- Phototherapy Working / Worked
- Tazorac Working / Worked
Open Rape
Don't really wanna go into details. Storys been told too many times. Just kinda numb now, I guess.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Sexual Abuse
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Leave Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
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