My return
September 10, 2009 12:04pm
Hello all. I've decided (with some pursuading) to come back to ds. I have vowed to stay away from the boards though for fear of it …
KandiShell
12:01pm, November 8, 2009
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About Me
KandiShell
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About Me
Kandiss is the name. Just your average, run of the mill hick with a heart three sizes too big. Im quite alot. But then Im not. Im running low on self esteem and have only a few friends, that I can see. I pray for the day that I pull my head out of the sand and face the world with the slap of a hand. I like to laugh, giggle, and smile. Though, I find it old in a short while. So this is all I want to say about me. Except for one thing. I want to be free.
Kandiss is the name. Just your average, run of the mill hick with a heart three sizes too big. Im quite alot. But then Im not. Im running low on self esteem and have only a few friends, that I can see. I pray for the day that I pull my head out of the sand and face the world with the slap of a hand. I like to laugh, giggle, and smile. Though, I find it old in a short while. So this is all I want to say about me. Except for one thing. I want to be free.
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Interests
horses.painting.my daughter.love.music.sunsets.lake.candles.rain.animals.art.photography.cabins.oceans.acustic guitar.singing.incense.sandlewood.lavendar.being barefoot.horseback riding.hot baths.peace and quiet.poetry.journaling.laughing.smiles.The human body.Anything medical.Science.Reading.Inspirational Literature.The Lord.My Friends.Helping.Listening.Understanding.
horses.painting.my daughter.love.music.sunsets.lake.candles.rain.animals.art.photography.cabins.oceans.acustic
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My baby sis wrote this about me. My encouragement
February 10, 2009 9:51am
1. Is it even possible for us to be more alike? Is it possible that in some parrallel universe we are twins? LOL! My whole life I have strived to be …
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Jewel
February 10, 2009 9:17am
Jewel and her hubby Ty will be on the new season of Dancing with the Stars. Starts Mon. March 9th at 7 pm on ABC.
Im sooooo friggin' stoked!!
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Little Love
Love you, sweetie........Thinking about ya all the time! xoxoxo
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hey kandi...just came by to give you a great big hug...i never see you on the board these days..and i miss u!!!! anyway, just read your going, or have gone to the jewl concert...lucky u!!! i love her!!! anyway, thinking of you and wishing you peace and love and all good things....xoxox, maggie
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hugs Kandiss... and have the most bestest time ever at the Jewel concert!!
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thanks for the friend request :) I believe a good friend of mine lived in Denison several years back, the large university there, for Campus Crusade for Christ. My memory is failing me!!! Hope you're having a good day :)
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School is good thanks, I've got a lot of work on but I'm enjoying it. My back is killing too but mine is due to a fall, hope your back feels better soon xoxox
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
BPII
Treatments
- Abilify Working / Worked
- working well this time around. Just had it up'd again.
- Art Working / Worked
- love painting and is very relaxing WHEN I do it.
- Holistic Health Working / Worked
- Vitamin B Complex and Omega 3 has helped me so far.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- I pray as much as I can and I believe in the power of prayer. Some days I feel very tested though.
- Singing Working / Worked
- I LOVE to sing. Thats the one this that I can honestly say Im good at. Even though I wont sing in front of that many people. I loooooove Jewel. Shes the best.
- Topamax Somewhat Helpful
- made me too anxious. But I lost weight.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Helped my anxiety. Still does.
- Zonegran Working / Worked
- Love this stuff for my mood and anxiety!
Close Miscarriage
I had a miscarriage in July 08. It took a big toll on me and my body. I was beyond devastated.
Treatments
Open Depression
I've fought depression since I was a teen. I hide things well. So well in fact that I don't think even my family knew I wanted to die when I was ten.
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- It worked really well, for awhile. Just like everything else.
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Considering
- Will someone PLEASE tell me what this is????
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Didn't do squat. For me mentally or physically. And please, NEVER try to stop this cold turkey. The withdrawals are gut wrenching.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- once again, worked for awhile. Helped for my PPD.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Did nothing for me. My OB gave it to me for PPD and it didn't even slow down the tears.
- Paxil Not Working
- Made me super dizzy. I didn't give it time to work and I think the doc started me out on too high of a dose.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- I wish I would do this more because it does help.
- Prozac Not Working
- Ugh. My doc switched me from effexor DIRECTLY to this. No baby steps. Nothing. I didn't last two days.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- is an absolute must. Meds are a must in alot of cases but this is a NECESSITY. I adore my Psychologist.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- It worked as a sleep aid.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- It works well when I actually believe that they care. I know for a fact now that my baby sis and my hubby are there for me.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- I don't really think it helped so much for the depression. I stopped smoking on it though.
- Writing Working / Worked
- The best. I've gotten out of the routine unfortunately because of my weak hands.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Hmmmmm..... No bueno. This along with alcohol, and a huge trigger sent me into suicidal hell.
- Singing Working / Worked
- I love to sing. I love getting in my car with my little girl and putting in one of my Jewel CDs and singing my heart out. Now my daughter tries to sing with me.
Open Fibromyalgia
Pain Mang. Spec. says this is whats going on with me. Something is because I feel 80, 90% of the time.
Treatments
- Acupressure Working / Worked
- Looooove a good massage.
- Acupuncture Considering
- really wanting to try this.
- Aqua Therapy Working / Worked
- works only while in the hot tub.
- Cyclobenzaprine Not Working
- Doesn't touch me of course.
- Cymbalta Not Working
- does nothing for pain
- Duragesic Patch Considering
- Doctor wants to put me on this but my paranoia overrides and I worry about breakthrough pain.
- Effexor Not Working
- this was for pain too?
- Heat Working / Worked
- I live with my heating pad.
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- works well. But not during my super duper flare ups.
- Lyrica Not Working
- no way. I might as well smoke a joint.
- TENS Working / Worked
- I love this when I go to the chiropractor. I want my own.
- Ultram Working / Worked
- works for mild pain
- Vitamin B12 Too Soon to Tell
- Im hoping.
- Zanaflex Working / Worked
- works okay for the muscle pain. Not for the burning joint pain.
Open Interstitial Cystitis (IC)
Diagnosed at 21. This is miserable on top of everything else, but I'm thankful for my "rescue solutions".
Treatments
- Macrobid Working / Worked
- they only give this to me if they detect any kind of infection, which they normally don't.
- Pyridium Somewhat Helpful
- I like Urelle better.
- Rescue Remedy Working / Worked
- ahhhh...now thats relief when Im in lots of pain. I got this often when I was pregnant.
Open Anxiety
Have had anxiety attacks since I was 21. I know how to fight them off most of the time now. Now I just worry about everything.
Treatments
- Acupuncture Considering
- really want to try this. Heard wonderful things.
- Atarax Somewhat Helpful
- All this is is a good antihistamine. Helped my sneezing.
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Worked. But not too many of them. Thats just foolish.
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- Works if the anxiety isn't too bad.
- BuSpar Not Working
- If you prefer no emotions, go with this drug.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- I like this. Chew them up. They will work faster.
- Lexapro Not Working
- HAHAHA!
- Meditation Working / Worked
- It really works when I go to my "happy place" for awhile.
- Paxil Not Working
- Made me waaay too dizzy.
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Hard physical labor will help you sweat that anxiety away for sure.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- I have those days ocassionally.
- Remeron Somewhat Helpful
- Helped me sleep but did nothing for the anxiety.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- works very well. For a couple of hours.
- Zoloft Not Working
- This sent me into a suicidal downward spiral. You don't give this to BP patients damn it!
Open Back Pain
constant pain with any activity. I want to know the truth of this.
Treatments
- Acupressure Working / Worked
- a good massage does wonders.
- Acupuncture Considering
- going to be trying soon.
- Bedrest Not Working
- laying around makes it worse
- Carisoprodol Somewhat Helpful
- helps a little.
- Chiropractic Adjustment Not Working
- this is too painful for me.
- Darvon Somewhat Helpful
- Helps on my not so bad days.
- Fentanyl Considering
- I am a little scared to try this. My doc wants me to.
- Flexeril Not Working
- just makes me tired.
- Heat Working / Worked
- I live with my heating pad.
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- I take 10mg 4 x a day of Vicoprofen and it helps a lot.
- Ibuprofen Working / Worked
- I take this at night since the vicoprofen keys me up.
- Relaxation Working / Worked
- The best medicine.
- Stretching Working / Worked
- Definitely works.
- TENS Working / Worked
- I wish I had one of my own.
Open Panic Attacks
KandiShell hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Parenting Preschoolers (3-5)
I have a three yr old girl whom I cherish. She is my life.
Treatments
- Child Time-out Working / Worked
- Works the best.
- Patience Working / Worked
- I don't have much of it but I try. My husband is my rock.
- Play Therapy Working / Worked
- she loooooves her daycare/school. She has learned so much and plays with her new little friends.
- Positive Reinforcement Working / Worked
- I just hide in the bedroom on my bad days so she doesn't get influenced by my moods.
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I smoke more than I ever have and need help quiting.
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Not Working
- Just can't. Makes me crash bad.
- Hard Candy Not Working
- I like a peppermint with a smoke.
- Nicotine Gum Considering
- I have a friend here who had great success with this. Thinking of trying it.
- Nicotine Patch Not Working
- I still crave a smoke while on the patch.
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- this helped me stop smoking last time but made me manic.
- Willpower Considering
- I need to find it first.
Open Family Issues
I wasn't raised in what you would call a "normal" family. I need help with forgiveness.
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Some songs are very helpful. Some only bring back memories.
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- I am hoping for the best
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Talking with my husband helps. Sometimes.
- Writing Working / Worked
- Very helpful. My journal can't judge me.
- Forgiveness Not Working
- Ive tried but this feeling in my heart wont allow me to forgive.
