endofillusions's Journal

ooooooohhhhhhhhhhhh nooooooooooooooeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssss!!!

i just finished mah cereaws and i usuawwy save da milk in da bowl dats weft ovah to takes mah meds wifs!!!! but  i dwanks all dah flavahed milks! ohhh noooooesss! what i do nows?!!!

hahaha, sorry, i am feeling really goofy and happy and silly and wonderful!!!!

:D:D:D:D:D yup yup yupperss!  

i was trying to post a vido journal, but da thinger won't recognize my web cam... even though it recognizes my voice....strange...

but yeah. i wanna sing at the top of my lungs!! and actually have been. lol :P

random ass songs from choir like 6 years ago :P i have no idea why, i totally forgot about some of them, and then they just popped outta my mouth!

but i have ta go soon...into town... to see Casey...and i am really nervous.. i mean, like... fuck, I know the dude so well.. we've spent nearly three years together. but i get all awkward now...i don't get it...and then he tells me that i can act normal...and i try.. but still i get this horrible feeling in my gut.....i dunno...sometimes it goes away and then i am fine and it's sorta like old times just laughing and shit, but... yeah, no use stressin' over it now... what happens happens

i just feel so sad. i mean, fuck. we had our futures sorta planned together.  and..... fuck

another time i;ll tell the long and depressing tale of Casey and I's love. lol... but not now, i am not gonna dwell and ruin this awsome happy mood i am in!

woot woot! anywhoo....gotsta go get some smokie treats! i smoked my last cigarette last night :(...

 but, i am gonna goes now, and i am sure i'll journal more tonight. :P