Sunshine7's Journal

I am moving on, I am strong.

I am going to go ahead and let this one go, if after two long horrible years things cannot work themselves out, then they never will."

The biggest problem is the apartment, who stays and who goes cause nobody has money to get their names off of the lease. I should have known that this was going to happen, I have had my doubts for a long time, over a stupid year. To think two days ago I actually thought I would be getting engaged soon.

I just want to vent about some of the things that he says:

"Shut your stupid cunt mouth."

"Shut up or your gonna loose me."

"Fuck you, you bitch."

"Ya fuck you we are done you stupid bitch I am tired of hearing you day in and day out you are such a drag don't ever talk to me again."

He says these things when we are fighting and then tries to take them back, he even called me ugly a month ago. I know that it is time to go, I just need to do it. Please God give me the strength please, please, please.

Help me find a way out of this lease and this mess, help me to build a life built on my strength and not on my weakness. Help me to find true happiness, and help Joe to do the same because we all deserve to be happy, even the people who hate me most.