Journal

I am moving on, I am strong.

I am going to go ahead and let this one go, if after two long horrible years things cannot work themselves out, then they never will."

The biggest problem is the apartment, who stays and who goes cause nobody has money to get their names off of the lease. I should have known that this was going to happen, I have had my doubts for a long time, over a stupid year. To think two days ago I actually thought I would be getting engaged soon.

I just want to vent about some of the things that he says:

"Shut your stupid cunt mouth."

"Shut up or your gonna loose me."

"Fuck you, you bitch."

"Ya fuck you we are done you stupid bitch I am tired of hearing you day in and day out you are such a drag don't ever talk to me again."

He says these things when we are fighting and then tries to take them back, he even called me ugly a month ago. I know that it is time to go, I just need to do it. Please God give me the strength please, please, please.

Help me find a way out of this lease and this mess, help me to build a life built on my strength and not on my weakness. Help me to find true happiness, and help Joe to do the same because we all deserve to be happy, even the people who hate me most.

I am a Seventh Day Adventist, and we believe as most Christians aside fom a few small things.

Anyways, I was in Church on Sabbath, and the message spoke so deep to me that I just wanted to share it.

If life throws us lemons we have to make lemonade. Not that we are bad people or that there is anything per say wrong with us but I think that is where we lost our way. We forgot to make the lemonade. Anybody that is in agreance of this, I would like to support and be supported on the making lemonade project. Whenever we are upset about something bad lets help each other to make good out of it.

Love you all and God bless,

Tera lee.